A Coward

[Quasimodo]

Why must I always say that I have social phobia therefore not being able to work or speak with a girl...why do I stay inside of this house and calculate each year that passes by with me doing nothing with this life I have and waiting for me to die.Why am I afraid of suicide...Why does my mind think that if I do get a job that ill probably end up getting in a fight and the police showing up and landing me back in jail for protecting myself of someone messing with me?Is this just an illusional thought that I have...why am I a coward to live life and why im I a coward to work and speak with a girl?Thank You God for this beautiful existence you have given me.

 

[getbornagain]

I've been asking the same questions for years.

 

[Gone]

Your not a coward, it takes alot of strength to live on when you just want to die. I kinda know how you feel and i know its frustrating how time goes by and nothing changes, i don't know what else to say :/