I have had many, many struggles in life and it has taken its toll on me. I don't wanna hear any stupid quotes like "God doesn't give us more what we can handle" crap.
Other not so healthy choices I'm addicted to are beer and cigarettes. Its my way of escaping the pains of reality. All the meds, counseling, and therapy in the world isn't going cure my feelings of loneliness, social rejection, and extreme shyness.
I usually drink 4 6hr. energy shots mixed with juice within an hour. Usually several times a week, I drink the mixture. Just curious what the long-term effects are on the body? I like the way it speeds up my heart making me feel more alive and having more energy.
I have only met 1 guy that's ever taken a strong interest in my life since I was in grade school. We have had our ups and downs. He's a functional heroin user (has a job and lives on his own) and yes, I've been around it and have no interest in trying it. Last month, I ignored his calls for 10 days until I ran into him unexpectedly which made everything awkward. Since then he has contacted me first maybe 2-3x. I ignored him because I want to imagine what life would be without him. While he is a friend, things do change within time.
To make matters worse, one of his female friends joked around with me about how much I liked him and that he's my boo. I haven't heard from in 6 days.
I feel like an a**hole for ignoring him and don't how to make it up to him.
Because of my deafness and hearing difficulty, it makes it extremely difficult to go out and meet people. I've tried meeting other guys and none of them has taken an interest in me like he has.
Other not so healthy choices I'm addicted to are beer and cigarettes. Its my way of escaping the pains of reality. All the meds, counseling, and therapy in the world isn't going cure my feelings of loneliness, social rejection, and extreme shyness.
I usually drink 4 6hr. energy shots mixed with juice within an hour. Usually several times a week, I drink the mixture. Just curious what the long-term effects are on the body? I like the way it speeds up my heart making me feel more alive and having more energy.
I have only met 1 guy that's ever taken a strong interest in my life since I was in grade school. We have had our ups and downs. He's a functional heroin user (has a job and lives on his own) and yes, I've been around it and have no interest in trying it. Last month, I ignored his calls for 10 days until I ran into him unexpectedly which made everything awkward. Since then he has contacted me first maybe 2-3x. I ignored him because I want to imagine what life would be without him. While he is a friend, things do change within time.
To make matters worse, one of his female friends joked around with me about how much I liked him and that he's my boo. I haven't heard from in 6 days.
I feel like an a**hole for ignoring him and don't how to make it up to him. Because of my deafness and hearing difficulty, it makes it extremely difficult to go out and meet people. I've tried meeting other guys and none of them has taken an interest in me like he has.
