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[Vincent]

Ｓｏｒｒｙ　ａｂｏｕｔ　ｔｈｉｓ　ｆｏｎｔ，　ｆｕｃｋｅｎ　Ｃｈｉｎｅｓｅ　ｂｕｌｌｓｈｉｔ　ｏｎ　ｔｈｅ　ｃｏｍｐｕｔｅｒｓ。　

Ａｎｙｗａｙｓ，　Ｉ　ｗａｎｔｅｄ　ｔｏ　ｐｏｕｒ　ｍｙ　ｈｅａｒｔ　ｏｕｔ。　Ｌａｓｔ　ｎｉｇｈｔ　ａｔ　ａ　ｆｒｉｅｎｄｓ，　Ｉ　ｇｏｔ　ｂｉｔｃｈｅｄ　ｏｕｔ　ｂｙ　ｔｈｉｓ　Ｃａｎａｄｉａｎ　ｄｉｃｋｈｅａｄ　ｃａｌｌｅｄ　Ｖｅｎ。　Ｈｅ　ｉｓ　ｖｅｒｙ　ｓｍａｒｔ　ａｎｄ　ｎｅｇａｔｉｖｅ　ａｎｄ　ｓｕｃｃｅｓｓｆｕｌ　ａｎｄ　ａｒｒｏｇａｎｔ。　Ｉ　ｄｏｎ’ｔ　ｋｎｏｗ　ｔｈａｔ　Ｉ　ａｍ　ａｎｙ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｏｓｅ　ｔｈｉｎｇｓ。　Ｂｕｔ　ｉｎｆｒｏｎｔ　ｏｆ　ｔｈｅ　ｏｔｈｅｒ　４　ｐｅｏｐｌｅ，　ｈｅ　ａｓｋｅｄ　ｍｅ　ｅｍｂａｒｒａｓｉｎｇ　ｑｕｅｓｔｉｏｎｓ　ｌｉｋｅ　ｈｏｗ　Ｉ meet women, yay, the fucken font works now. and how long my longest relationship went for. That sort of thing. He made a fool out of me. But, I was thinking that he was the fool because he was being negative. He was trying to prove that he was better than me I think, but to me he didn't prove that, as that is a negative way of looking at people and I am aware of that and he isnt. I won't be like that in the future and he will. He is getting married and his girl is pregnant, and so, I think hes trying to prove it to himself, that he is better off than me maybe. I don't know. I know that Im not ready for that kind of life, nor have a I found the right person. Yet, around couples, I do feel like a child or something. But, I was out there, socialising even if it was to be picked on. That is a person accomplishment. I was given negativity by someone more successful than me, but I won't carry it with me.

Tonight, went to a bar with my outgoing friend, and met some nerdy successful engineering guys. Sat like a fool with my mouth closed for an hour and a half. God knows what they they thought of me. Last night there was a guy that was silent alot, and I didn't have a positive opinion of him based on that.

Its been a weekend of trials already, and my cash has run out, which means that I have no choice in the matter. More cash means more exposure, getting more teaching work, more demons. Fuck, its not easy. The path to my happiness won't be. Still, these two situations that I took, especially being bitched by that fool, make me feel more confident, even sitting at the cyber cafe with these beautiful Chinese women around, I　ａｍ　ｌｅｓｓ　ｐｈａｓｅｄ。　Ｓｗｅｅｔ　ａｙｅ？　

Ｔｈａｎｋｓ　ｆｏｒ　ｌｉｓｔｅｎｉｎｇ　ｔｏ　ｍｙ　ｄｒｉｖｅｌ。

Ｖｉｎｃｅｎｔ

 

[jamez]

Hey good work. You should have punched that guy in the face lol.

 

[Waybuloo]

Re: ｗｅｅｋ&#65

Last night there was a guy that was silent alot, and I didn't have a positive opinion of him based on that.

isn't that a bit hypocritical
well i can't really talk cause i'm like that occasionally.
maybe u see a bit of urself in him? :idea:

Yea jamez real smart move

 

[exuser01]

Re: ｗｅｅｋ&#65

Last night there was a guy that was silent alot, and I didn't have a positive opinion of him based on that.

Tonight, went to a bar with my outgoing friend, and met some nerdy successful engineering guys.

I'm sry but my inflatable kiddie pool isn't even this shallow. :roll:

I think changing your attitude should be the first step if you want to feel good.

 

[Vincent]

good egg

Good egg,

appreciate the feedback,
and when I reread what I wrote, it seems kind of harsh, my judgement of others, but most do to an extent, its the cold harsh reality. If you didn't evaluate (judge) people, then you would not be discerning with your time, and you woudln't maximise the use of it by being with people that can bring you more benefit and vice versa. But cos we all have social anxiety, and few people to choose between, we then say "don't judge people" or whatever, seeing as this is what we fear the most. Our fear of being judged negativily is a self fullfilling prophesy. I think the point isnt to judge people too quickly

The thing about the guy being quiet, well that wasn't nearly as bad as the arrogant cock, bleating out his superiority complex. My point about the other guy that was quiet, well, I was just noting what I thought of him based on his behaviour, which is what I often did as no doubt many others do. So, it was like seeing myself in a way. However, I knew my judgement was harsh, but its a reflex, when someone is silent you don't know what they are thinking. They are then the unknown, and it natural to fear what you don't know.

The comment about eh successful nerds, of interest, as I can't deside if Im a nerd or not. If I was positive more, and into technical things, into my safe zones and shit, I don't know. But, why give those guys that label? what does it mean? Its a description, but the point is that they are good at being who they are, they have been who they are all their life, not like me, stuck in limbo, trying to decide on a personality.

blah,

dont know...
comments?