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MyTuesday

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Good morning.
And I welcome you to welcome me to the forums.
As people usually talk about there concerns and problems I thought it might be a good idea to share mine too. You know. So you can improve your ability to help the next guy talking about his problems.

There is a tl;dr section right at the end of the post.

Hi,
I'm 16 years old and my father wants to send to to therapy. Lets find out why.
Cause I'm having no social life whatsoever. I do not meet friends or even go outside. I'm playing with the thought that might be caused by my lack of friends. In fact I'm pretty sure. Cause I don't have any.
I can not say I was completely innocent. Actually it's more like completely my fault.
The only thing I did to make friends was skipping the school sometimes which probably must have impressed my class mates so much they started talking to me.
Why would I skip school? Well, indeed I didn't have anything better to do tho' my class mates are loud and I'm screaming for attention. Which I concealed perfectly.

Since I've gone home lets talk about that too.
Well. My parents are divorced since I was seven. I switched periodically every week. The weeks became months and the months turned out to be more like years and about 2 years ago i went to my fathers and stayed there. I don't really see my mother anymore. Sometimes she catches me on my way to school and walks along. I think she got married again. (Intended. She indeed married. Tho' I didn't show up.)
Ok. Unhealthy relationship to my mother. Check. (I actually treat other people pretty much the same.)
We're slowly reaching for the core problem. I don't really like the people I've met yet.
Now why the hell is that? Well. They bore me. Attention: I'm a huge ass. Tho' since I'm pretty manipulative no one knows yet.
And we discovered the next problem: I suppress my feelings.
Why would one do that? Well. Cause otherwise either you or I would be dead now. Because pretty much every time I speak with my father I suppress anger. Notice here that pretty much my entire social interaction is focused on my father.
Where is that anger coming from? Well. It could come from the fact that my parents are divorced and I hate my father because of that.
My personal favorite tho' is that he's pretty stupid. Not really stupid just enough to piss me off when he uses his authority to do something I do not really agree with. I have to play evil mind games which again require emotional suppression.
Why would I use manipulation if I could just argue? Because there is no use. He forgets arguments after about 2 hours. So that is usually the time he comes back and talks about exactly the same ****. Some times it happens tho' that he just skips the arguments I bring into the conversation and again repeats the first sentence he spoke at the beginning of the conversation. Usually what he says is never intended to be an actual conversation. He just sort of tells me what his mind came up with while watching crime time.
I think I've figured out how to deal with him tho' it's very time consuming and remains unpleasant.

Well. That is pretty much everything I do in my life. Now you know it all. Pretty boring if you ask me.
And probably not very healthy for my mental state.

In fact I don't have any hobbies or things I do besides school which also sort of bores me tho' if I'd stop attending completely people would notice something. I played soccer when I was little and did pretty much what everyone else did tho' I developed myself into an individual my environment is unfamiliar with and thus does not really know what to do thus sticks with what it already knows thus I'm pissed.

I don't know if anything of what I just said is true. Well. Besides the "I'm pissed" part.

Since I don't really want to adopt their behaviors and remain a human being with the need to share I'm spending quite a lot of time on the internet in hope there might be people like me. I don't like having no friends. I don't want that. It's boring.

I was more like a lurker(not posting just reading) and I hoped to find people that have posted something I could find myself in. Tho' people who wrote something I could agree with were about 40 years old and I figured those have even tho' they write things I can agree with adopted or always had behaviors I don't really like.

Now the section for lazy people. I'm from germany btw.

tl;dr:
-I'm bored
-I think people I know are stupid
-I want to find people like me
-I'm pissed cause of my father
-I don't have a social life
-I'm pretty manipulative cause I've learned to live in an environment that does not know what to do with me
-I don't have hobbies
-I think of myself that I'm pretty smart
-I like trolling people(Sometimes I just have to laugh when I see peoples minds in action)
-I do not define stupidity as the absence of the ability to solve problems(In fact I'm pretty bad at math)

Feel free to answer if you either know something about the situation I described or you in fact think it would be a good idea getting to know me.
Edit: You also can kick my ass and tell me what a self involved edgy teenager I am. Just remember have fun cause otherwise it would not serve any purpose.
 
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Niteowl

Well-known member
Hey, welcome! :D

Very thoughtful of you adding a tl;dr section. I did read it all though, after reading that bit first lol. Nice to have you here.
 
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