The way I feel

I posted this once but it didn't go.

I was saying Since I was born my grandparents raised me. Well now my grandpa is 87 I think and my grandma is 84. Anyway, my grandma has Alzheimer's disease and it's really been making me feel bad. I've always seen my grandma as someone who I can connect to and in the past 3 years she's been getting worse. My grandpa, God bless him, looks after her and still loves her, but I'm just afraid of if one of them dies. I don't know wtf I'm gonna do. I've remembered them more then I can remember my own parents. To me they are my parents. I love them sooo much, I wish I could be there more. My dad goes to see them when ever he can, but my uncle sees them maybe 3x a month? I really respect them and I wish the rest of the world would respect their elders. They have so much they can tell us, I know cuz my grandpa always tells me stuff about If I'm ever in the wield how to survive or if I need to catch animals. I'm so sad they are getting old. They really are the best people I have ever known

sorry to hear that, But you know, getting old and dying is just part of life. If i can suggest you anything to help, Read "tuesdays with maurie" by Mitch Albom it may help a bit.

Making your grandparents a dependent part of your happiness and therefore part of your life will generate a vacuum, a lack of something {most likely social interaction} once they're gone. This is very difficult to tackle, but you've got to realise that like everything they don't exist forever. All good things come to an end sooner or later.

You've got to accept that they will pass away sometime and that's why you should spend as much quality time with them as possible. A loss of loved ones will always cause mourn and mental pain, it's possible to overcome it by letting them go, no matter how harsh it sounds like^^.

Sorry to hear your having hard times.

Thanks guys, and that book tuesdays with maurie My aunt used to say its such a great book, I may just read it. And I should go see my grandparents too, I haven't seen them since christmas, I've been selfish, sleeping during the afternoon and fucking around, I should go there and visit. They like when I come over, I always offer to do stuff for them and sometimes I just talk with them and they tell me all about the olden days lol. I don't mind it but lots of people think that when old people talk about the olden days they r just crazy. Well I know I relate to the stuff they talk about when they are teenagers. The one thing I remember the most is my grandpa told me him and his friends used to ride around in a model T and yell at girls on the road, lol me and my buddies did that too, of course not in a model T.

Anyway, I think they got a lot to say and I wish others wouldn't be so harsh on the older people.