does anyone else feel that they want to so******e, just not all of the time?
I dont mind being alone most of the time. I can usually entertain myself whether through TV, gaming, books etc or even my own thoughts, I am rarely bored but sometimes I get the urge for human contact.
When this happens I will ring my mates up and see what they are doing. We will usually go to the pub or round someone's house and I have a good time.
However I want to go home after awhile and usually long before my mates do because I suddenly feel drained and need some time alone to recuperate.
I find myself making excuses to go home or if I cant find one I end up not enjoying myself and worry its coming across to them.
They will normally want to do something the next day aswell and have something to do every day at the weekend however I would be happier with going out just once or twice a week.
I dont like doing it but I will make up excuses that I cant go out and make up other things that I am doing instead because I dont want to tell them I would rather sit at home doing nothing and if I told them that they might take offence and think that I dont like hanging out with them.
If I preferred being alone and hated people it might be easier because I would just avoid them and if I was the complete opposite it would be great. But I feel im somewhere in the middle.
I guess another one of my problems is I value too much what other people think of me and if people thought of me as the unsociable type it would bother me that they might have a negative opinion of me. I dont hate people, I have a desire to be liked and loved by people. It makes me feel happy knowing that there are people who care about me or love me but I just find it all so draining sometimes managing it all. It makes me depressed if I think someone doesn't like me.
At the moment I am struggling hence why I am posting. I have been dating this girl recently and she seems really interested we've been out about 5 times and met about once or twice a week. This is my doing because I have been pretending most of the time to be too busy to meet up more often.
I really like her and because I like her I try really hard to be confident and impress when were out but its so draining. I guess there's still a part of me that feels inadequate because of my previous experiences with sa and I don't want to see her too often in case she grows to think I am boring or annoying or something. I only have so much to give and when I get drained I do loose a lot of my social ability.
But I like the fact she's interested in me, it makes me feel good inside but that's only when were apart funny enough because when were together even now after 5 dates I still get nervous about meeting up and I guess that's my fear of messing it up.
I seem to feel this way every time I date someone and my relationships never last long.
Does anyone else ever feel this way?
I dont mind being alone most of the time. I can usually entertain myself whether through TV, gaming, books etc or even my own thoughts, I am rarely bored but sometimes I get the urge for human contact.
When this happens I will ring my mates up and see what they are doing. We will usually go to the pub or round someone's house and I have a good time.
However I want to go home after awhile and usually long before my mates do because I suddenly feel drained and need some time alone to recuperate.
I find myself making excuses to go home or if I cant find one I end up not enjoying myself and worry its coming across to them.
They will normally want to do something the next day aswell and have something to do every day at the weekend however I would be happier with going out just once or twice a week.
I dont like doing it but I will make up excuses that I cant go out and make up other things that I am doing instead because I dont want to tell them I would rather sit at home doing nothing and if I told them that they might take offence and think that I dont like hanging out with them.
If I preferred being alone and hated people it might be easier because I would just avoid them and if I was the complete opposite it would be great. But I feel im somewhere in the middle.
I guess another one of my problems is I value too much what other people think of me and if people thought of me as the unsociable type it would bother me that they might have a negative opinion of me. I dont hate people, I have a desire to be liked and loved by people. It makes me feel happy knowing that there are people who care about me or love me but I just find it all so draining sometimes managing it all. It makes me depressed if I think someone doesn't like me.
At the moment I am struggling hence why I am posting. I have been dating this girl recently and she seems really interested we've been out about 5 times and met about once or twice a week. This is my doing because I have been pretending most of the time to be too busy to meet up more often.
I really like her and because I like her I try really hard to be confident and impress when were out but its so draining. I guess there's still a part of me that feels inadequate because of my previous experiences with sa and I don't want to see her too often in case she grows to think I am boring or annoying or something. I only have so much to give and when I get drained I do loose a lot of my social ability.
But I like the fact she's interested in me, it makes me feel good inside but that's only when were apart funny enough because when were together even now after 5 dates I still get nervous about meeting up and I guess that's my fear of messing it up.
I seem to feel this way every time I date someone and my relationships never last long.
Does anyone else ever feel this way?