Hero
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Hi, has anyone else encountered this? I feel today I made a breakthrough in what exactly causes my SA.
I feel my moods are very up and down, I feel like a yo-yo. When I'm up. I feel happy, wanted, acceptance. When I feel down, I feel depressed, drained and social anxious. I was alone all day at work, and I felt numb and severely depressed.
My social anxiety doesn't seem to be like other people's. I've heard that some of you are too anxious to leave the house, or too wary giving eye contact. I find I can do these sorts of things very easily (not when I was young.)
I find if I feel lonely, or if someone humiliates me, ignores or rejects me in a social way, my social anxiety kicks off. It's almost like a trigger. Bang! My mood switches. I will hot, heavy and tired if I'm around people. I will want to crawl in a hole and die. I will lose my voice, and my brain will fill up with negative confusing thoughts. It becomes a nightmare. This happened at a recent party, and I felt everyone was watching me and thinking I'm weird.
But if I feel wanted, if people treat me with respect and talk to me (despite my social awkwardness) I will feel the symptoms less and less.
Can anyone relate to me?
I feel my moods are very up and down, I feel like a yo-yo. When I'm up. I feel happy, wanted, acceptance. When I feel down, I feel depressed, drained and social anxious. I was alone all day at work, and I felt numb and severely depressed.
My social anxiety doesn't seem to be like other people's. I've heard that some of you are too anxious to leave the house, or too wary giving eye contact. I find I can do these sorts of things very easily (not when I was young.)
I find if I feel lonely, or if someone humiliates me, ignores or rejects me in a social way, my social anxiety kicks off. It's almost like a trigger. Bang! My mood switches. I will hot, heavy and tired if I'm around people. I will want to crawl in a hole and die. I will lose my voice, and my brain will fill up with negative confusing thoughts. It becomes a nightmare. This happened at a recent party, and I felt everyone was watching me and thinking I'm weird.
But if I feel wanted, if people treat me with respect and talk to me (despite my social awkwardness) I will feel the symptoms less and less.
Can anyone relate to me?
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