Nothing to talk about

Its November and its dark and rainy. I've been having horrible nightmares and just recently started cutting my wrists. Wouldn't it be nice if talking about these sort of things was somehow acceptable. My family calls and I tell them everything is alright. I'm so tired of pretending everything is okay in front of people. No one wants to talk about this shit and I don't really blame them because I don't either. But it sure doesn't leave me with very much to say. Sometimes it would just be nice to be myself for once. You know, actually level with people. But that's impossible. Some days there is just not a goddamn thing to say to anyone.

I know how you feel, but please get help because slashing your wrists is not good.

desperate_dan said:

Its November and its dark and rainy. I've been having horrible nightmares and just recently started cutting my wrists. Wouldn't it be nice if talking about these sort of things was somehow acceptable. My family calls and I tell them everything is alright. I'm so tired of pretending everything is okay in front of people. No one wants to talk about this shit and I don't really blame them because I don't either. But it sure doesn't leave me with very much to say. Sometimes it would just be nice to be myself for once. You know, actually level with people. But that's impossible. Some days there is just not a goddamn thing to say to anyone.

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nothing is impossible, the more time you spend around people the more you will be able to open up and be true to yourself and towards others but it takes a while to do that. im with recluse in the slitting of the wrists, you better stop that becuase like you said it isnt acceptable because its the total opposite of the primary notation for a human being's existential willingness to survive and to experience what life has to offer, sure you might have your bad days but im pretty sure you've also had good days as well. in general life is not a cake walk (for some it is but who gives a shit about them). so go do yourself a huge favor and get some type of help/

I know exactly how u feel, except I can share with my parents.. but every time I try to share with my brother he just yellls at me or something, saying how can u talk about the same things all the time...... and it makes me feel even worse... and I hate pretending I'm fine in school....and u should see a doctor.. please do.. and I only have SA thoughts... so I also have nothing to talk about, almost never...

Please get help with the wrist cutting, its not going to take the pain away... it only makes it worst when people finds out.

Dan, you are stronger than that. You are far stronger than to let something like wrist-cutting take control of you. Take the power back, man.

I used to hurt myself too, now I just cut pillows.

So what, if you don't have anything to say to these people they don't have anything to say either?

Most people are so boring and shallow, you always have to give all the entertainment yourself.

Yeah right, try to talk and tell someone that you cut your wrists without getting them to go hysteric and think that you're crazy.
Of course the last thing they would do is to try to understand your pain. Maybe their EQ is too low or maybe it's because they were educated by the education system (if you can call this education at all). You can always go and see a therapist if you want, but personally that didn't help much.

It would be bliss if I could find more open minded people to talk to in real life, but all I find are a bunch of drunken brats, old traditional senile fools and other hysteric crazies.