No friends...

I don't really tell anyone about my disorders due to social stigma around it and feeling awkward. Some people don't understand why I don't really socialize with them and others and so they fire back and say hurtful things. One person told me he didn't like me and pretty much had no reason except me not talking or not paying attention to people around me, and he blamed me for things I can't even control or realize I am doing when anxious (like facial expressions). He is a friend of someone very close to me and tried to break me and that person away from each other. I explained to him that if I was doing anything to bother him I hadn't realized it and didn't intend to act stuck up or rude in any way. But he just gave some sarcastic remarks, called me names, and said no one liked me. I have NEVER been rude to this person, always nice, friendly, smiling. I was just mostly quiet and withdrawn around him...
So I am kind of depressed because I never did anything wrong, but somehow "everyone" hates me...just for being unsocial... Does wonders for my inferiority complex. He is a grown man with a family, and I am still a teenager and a student, yet I was being mature trying to resolve any issues without aggression, and he was swearing and saying things to put me down, wouldn't listen to me at all.
I needed to get that out, any advice or comments on this would be so appreciated though!


Also another issue about friends: I recently grew apart from a childhood friend, as we are at different stages in our lives and it doesn't feel the same around her as it had before. She has changed a lot, we have taken different paths in life, and she really doesn't feel like the friend I knew before as our interests and priorities became less and less similar. She still sees me as a friend but I want us to move on and go our separate ways, and wish her the best in her life. I don't even enjoy hanging out with the people I use to; spending time with friends just seems tedious and awkward, and being depressed I don't enjoy the things and friends that I did before. Not that I don't like them anymore, I just feel bored and tired and depressed, instead of feeling good around/having fun with friends. Does anyone else have this experience with friends? Like you would rather have no friends at all than have friends to commit to, because you like solitude?

that guy sounds like a **** to me,i know a lot of people are put off by me not speaking or making eye contact but noone has come to the point of telling me i'm not liked,that's just rude and i wouldn't worry about it,it doesn't say anything about you but it does for him.
it might not feel the same but i wouldn't advise dumping your friends altogether,all the friends i had were bad friends and sometimes i still find myself wanting to go back to them because it's so hard to make new friends.you might feel like they don't help you but trust me,being completely alone only makes your depression worse.

Yeah don't worry about anything that d*****bag said.

I relate to this a lot and I've also asked myself the same question

" Like you would rather have no friends at all than have friends to commit to, because you like solitude? "

I've came to the conclusion that making an effort to have friends is worth it but I still don't want to do anything about it because I think it's just easier.

I have many friends

The sun on my shoulders
The trail beneath my feet
The tide that comes to greet me
The ocean backwash playing at my toes

The rainbirds that fly above
The wind whispering in the eucalyptus trees
The creek trickling around rounded river stones
The Oystercatchers piping unseen
The clouds on their way home.
The headlands resisting the advance of the sea.