I think there may be 2 main issues here:
1) Mental: Worrying about your future (& frustrated that this ideal future is not happening in present, & maybe worrying that this future might never "catch up" with the present life you have & the direction your present life is taking you)
2) Physical (chemical): Hyperactive mind
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Solutions:
1) Mental: This i think is a tremendously complex issue, but i think chris420 & binn hit the nail on the head - you need to FOCUS your mind's thoughts, either through meditation, focussing mind on positives, or whatever works for you
So, some options (= gives your mind a temporary BREAK/ESCAPE)
Mental
- meditation
- appreciation (of your positives)
- beliefs:
- Tell yourself 'don't sweat the small stuff' (& try to convince yourself that this is true)
- ...
Sensory (usu easier)
- have a LONG shower or bath (1 or 2 hours)
- eat a packet/so of really crunchy crackers/crisps
- do some simple/easy & repetitive (eg sort/rename files on your computer)
-> The main thing is to put your mind on simplicity (for a "session" of)
-> Sensory = (relatively) quick-fix, but temporary CURES
-> For longer-term (more permanent) cures, see #2
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2) Physical (chemical): Your chemical environment
defintely can make the mind/thoughts a
LOT more troublesome than it needs to be (& therefore
feelings also)
- Think about all the toxins/chemicals in your environs
- food (additives, allergies, intolerances, caffeine (coffee/chocolate), sugar, fatty/dairy,...)
- house (mold, bedding (dust mites), rotten odours, chemical cleaning products, soap/shampoo, deoderant, perfume,...)
- CO2 (keep house/.. well-ventilated)
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As to what i think you "have" (diagnosis)..
- Hyperactive mind
- Worrier (maybe)
- Lifestyle might be too "busy" (might need to reduce the amount of activities you partake in, so as to reduce the quantity/clutter/intrusion/worrying of thoughts)
- Toxins that reacting to (& maybe allergies)
Hope this helps!