My life is a series of rejections

I'm sure I have avoidant personality disorder but I'm not that sure about social anxiety disorder. I don't have anywhere to say this though.

Everything about my personality makes people dislike me. People always have and always do reject me, for my whole life. It started when I was little and has developed for years. I can't act how I am around people, because then they wont want to be around me. I can barely talk to people in real life because I'm afraid that if I say the wrong thing that they will reject me.

My personality is awful, and people also reject me because I'm not handsome enough. I feel stupid.

I've had some panic attacks and I'm afraid I'm going to have more. The last one I had was 2 days ago. I can't help it though. I get so much anxiety over stupid thingsl like standing in line at a fast food resturaunt.

Now that I'm so quiet, people just naturally reject me because I don't talk. I really hate this.

There's nothing wrong with you, people are just so judemental and mean and will find any excuse to make you feel bad if you're not exactly like them. Can I just say you sound exactly me....I know you hate it, but I don't think theres anything wrong with being a quiet person, if it makes you feel any better at least you don't vomit in line at fast food restuarants (I did that)

Emma said:

There's nothing wrong with you, people are just so judemental and mean and will find any excuse to make you feel bad if you're not exactly like them. Can I just say you sound exactly me....I know you hate it, but I don't think theres anything wrong with being a quiet person, if it makes you feel any better at least you don't vomit in line at fast food restuarants (I did that)

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Emma that is so true!! it seems to be a common trend particularly with overly arrogant people that there must be "one unified personality" and this is how everyone must act....if your not outgoing and loud all the time then your a burden on society..."my parents believe that"...and its such an arrogant and controlling attitude that people have about how youth in todays society have to fit in..I cant go two weeks of non socialising without someone informing me that "im not like the kids of today"...whatever that means....I actually socialise at school and where I work and I try to make an effort as much as I can considerring that I am more introverted/shy then loud and outgoing, so really they are saying that I should be out drinking every night with groups and if im not then im "not up to the standards"...not that I dont enjoy going to a club or concert and having fun...I just cant get my head around people who keep count and compare my social activities by numbers with other people...its all about prejudice and the negativity from other people that gets under my skin....people can be curious about the way I am ..but when they communicate it in a threatening and negative way to make me feel bad about it..like ive commited a serious crime then I realise how difficult it can be to live around people who stick to fairly rigid principles....

and you dont have an awful personality Warlock.. you seem knowledgable and help people by posting

I believe you do have social anxiety disorder. Let me just confirm: do you feel scared around social situations or do you just have a tendency to avoid people who confront you?

I am always thankful I'm not like the conceited judgmental people and those they want me to emulate. There's no way I can aspire to be like that. They are not my role-models.

Maybe what I just said was conceited Truth be told, whever in school I tried to fit in no matter the cost, I felt horrible about myself after.

It's just too bad the people I'd proabably get along with most are also in hiding to some degree, sigh.