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    Im gonna die soon.

    Sorry, I don't mean to be rude to anyone. Again, I have a part time job at the moment. I don't want leave this thread on a bad note... but I don't wanna waste 20 more years living with my parents either. I'm too young to deal with so much stress. I feel like I exist in a vacuum. It's not a...
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    Im gonna die soon.

    I've told both my parents on many occasions about how their actions affect me and they continue to brush me off with "You're just sad" or "I don't know why you're doing this." When I opened up to my mother about my own depression, she gave me a flippant answer "Yeah, well so do I." Why should a...
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    Im gonna die soon.

    I'm 22 by the way
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    Im gonna die soon.

    Sorry. Just wanted to give an example anyways. No one deserves to suffer this much...
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    Im gonna die soon.

    Now look at this video. Same person. He and I somewhat both share some things in common with family trauma verbal abuse wise... still there's no excuse for this. PTSD is no joke. I can't stress that enough. Seems that it caused long term effects too.
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    Im gonna die soon.

    THIS. This is exactly how I feel. This is what chronic anxiety attacks are like for me. It's hard treading on water all the time.
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    Im gonna die soon.

    My dad says her night terrors are something I need to live with and I shouldn't let it affect me. OMG, this is living hell fo me! I'm not joking. It's a f#cking nightmare. What do you guys think??? Please, I really hate living with them. I always feel sad when I'm with them and their lack of...
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    Im gonna die soon.

    I don't know anyone my age who goes through so much trauma/stress all at once.
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    Im gonna die soon.

    There's no hope for me anymore. I'm literally breaking apart as I write this. I doubt I'm gonna make it. I'm trapped with my parents forever and my anxiety has gotten worse and worse due to my Mom's night terrors at night which she can't get help for. No one knows how the terror I'm living...
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    Can herbal tea cauae vivid dreams?

    I'm very emotionally sensitive. I heard that dreams about going to the bathroom symbolize emotional release. I am compelled to agree that having trauma/depression increases the intensity of dreams.
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    Can herbal tea cauae vivid dreams?

    How many hours are you on it? Do you use it when you go to bed?
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    Can herbal tea cauae vivid dreams?

    I'm starting to wonder if I'm just naturally a lucid dreamer(though there are dreams where I'm not aware I'm dreaming.) Even to this day, I could tell you about a certain dream I had 10 years ago and remember almost exactly what it was about.
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    Can herbal tea cauae vivid dreams?

    Oh, and not to sound gross, but I have dreams about going to the bathroom a lot.
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    Can herbal tea cauae vivid dreams?

    I don't think I have REM sleep disorder.... I've never had any jerk movements upon waking up from a bad dream. I think maybe my vivid dreams have more to do with what I'm actually dealing with in life and that could make sense. The more repetitive my life is, the more I keep having those...
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    Can herbal tea cauae vivid dreams?

    One question: How often do you use your laptop? I try to dim the brightness on my cellphone to the lowest setting so I don't receive so much artificial blue light. Honestly, I'm afraid of my future and I have so much on my plate for someone so young. I don't think my family has any history...
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