Just a quick update about my progress

darkrider

Well-known member
Hey guys, it's been a long while since I posted on this forum. I would like to let you guys know about the baby steps I took over the past few months to overcome SA.

Anyway I'm 17 now and I still have SA but I find as of late I'm coming out a little bit and for some strange reason I find myself in situations nearly everyday where I'm being challenged to overcome SA and guess what? I succeed all the time.

The other day some repairmen came over to fix an electrical problem. I was the only one at home. I had to look outside when they called, say "Good afternoon", invite them in and show them the problem. I even engaged in small talk and we all had a laugh at the end. I was really surprised at how natural it was. I didn't think about whether or not I'm sounding like an idiot or looking socially awkward, I didn't feel as if I were being judged and most of all I just didn't get that awkward feeling I get in the presence of strangers where my body is all stiff and my jaw freezes up and I can't talk.

Then the other day my grandpa's friend came over to visit him because he is very sick (my grandpa) and once again I engaged in small talk and it was painless.

In both instances the timing was just incredible. It just happened like that. The repairmen just showed up in front my house catching me off guard and when my grandfather's friend visited I just happened to walk outside to put out the garbage and bam! He appears. I wasn't given anytime to prepare myself mentally for the situation, It just happened on the spot.

So I just posted that cause I'm really proud of myself and I wanted to share it with you all and hopefully my story can inspire a few people. Trust me, if I could have actually hold a conversation and just randomly cracking jokes with some repairmen and someone I don't even know (I didn't even knew who the heck that guy who came to visit my grandpa was),then any of you can.

I've come a really long way since I joined this forum. There was a time where I was a nervous wreck and couldn't sleep because I was too anxious to attend a course.

However, I still pretty much stay at home 24/7 but I don't think it has anything to do with SA or Aggoraphobia or anything like that. That's just who I am. I like to keep to myself. I'm not a party animal, I'm not one for hanging out late at night, I'm just me. I like to be in the comfort of my home playing video games, surfing the web or exercising.

My biggest problem at this stage in my life is talking to the opposite sex but hey I'm sure it'll all work out eventually.

So anyway, that's my update!
 

MikeyC

Well-known member
Hey, that's awesome, darkrider! Very happy for your progress and you'll get even more confident in 2012!
 
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