I've been given the ultimate choice

Make improvement of life and thinking progress (such as suicidal thoughts) by 1st of September or be hospitalized.

Goodbye people. That's too short of a time and I am nowhere near making improvement, infact I am getting worser.

The End

I'm gonna have to lie my way through this one.

Unfortunately for me I am being watched by a Community Mental Health Team.

Obviously they're all against me. I told them I will NOT be hospitalized. Do they not understand? I can RECOVER but I cannot recover in a set time frame.

If I must take death over being put in hospital I will. So much for prevention of my suicide. They were just thoughts I am not even ready yet, but maybe I being pushed into it now.

I made a choice and I am sticking to it. I said NO anti-depressents and NO hospitals. I am too smart to let them do this to me.

I will secretly plan everything and execute it as soon as they find out I have not made any improvement. I can bullshit my way through it easy but I am not going to. I'm not going to LIE about anything.

Some choice huh? Totally unfair....I'll win this battle!! Be sure about that, this will be one that I will not fall to. My cause is set and my plan is in motion.

Stupid consultant psychiatrist....!!!!!!!!!

I will hide somethings but these things are being hidden so I do not let them win.

PS. No one can say I never tried..I just wasn't fast enough!! Sometimes I wonder who is more ill..me or them? Can they not see when someone like me makes 2 things that he obviously sticks to that they can't outsmart me. They underestimated my intelligence and now they are going to be responsible for forcing me to take action.

I would prefer to be hospitalized for a period, but it won't happen as I never mention my suicidal feelings to anyone, despite the fact that I have them regularly.

I'm sure not everyone would want that for themselves though.

ChrisC

You said you CAN recover. Hold that thought .... whatever happens, good luck. :wink:

Yeah Mad Cat, do what you have to do as far as trying to get better. Your situation sounds kind of complicated and I'm sure it is. But whatever you do, please DON'T actually physically hurt yourself in any way. There are other ways to overcome obstacles. Your smart so I know you'll get through this. I'll pray for you okay!

I plan to lie..I've settled down and figured it all out.

They ae not giving me a chance to get better so I will lie my way through all of it. I am actually making progress today.

All I got now is myself and my thoughts. Iwonder if I can pull through this and help myself? dunno, but I just might.

Hey man, someone I know (family member) was admitted to the hospital not for issues like yours but he was schizophrenic (spelling) suicidal issues and treats to yourself and actually tempting to do so will guarantee you hospital stay.
ANyway, he was submitted and they prescribed him medication. he ate food gain weight hung out watch tv eventually he got government money monthly. his family had lower expectations and they dont pressure him no more they see him as sick. even so, the gogovernment see him as mentally ill. no he is doing good. government help find him a place to stay through social services and he is doing better.
the point is that there are many directions to go too to get better.
Some people lose themselves and become homeless and detached from society totally. Ive been there really tough.
hey man you gotta stay strong.
some people just run id just runaway and leave town and join the services or a world volunteer group and travel. The sucky thing about anxiety is dealing with people. damm.

Far out, hospitalisation for suicidal thoughts? Dude where do you live?
I've been shuffled along to shrinks and counsellors since I was 14 with suicidal thoughts and Ive been put on many different types of medication that gave me nothing but side effects but Ive never been threatened with long term hospitalisation.
Closest I've come was when I was 19 and the Police took me to hospital overnight for observation. Although when I was 16 and botched up a suicide attempt I was placed in a foster home by a mental health organisation.
But here in NZ we have the highest or second highest suicide rate in the Western world (just behind or equal to Japan I think) so there probably isnt the facilities to hospitalise suicidal people long term.
Personally I cant see how hospitalisation will help your cause at all, if it were me I would scream and scratch and fart and run or do anything I could to avoid the men in white coats

Horatio said:

Far out, hospitalisation for suicidal thoughts? Dude where do you live?
I've been shuffled along to shrinks and counsellors since I was 14 with suicidal thoughts and Ive been put on many different types of medication that gave me nothing but side effects but Ive never been threatened with long term hospitalisation.
Closest I've come was when I was 19 and the Police took me to hospital overnight for observation. Although when I was 16 and botched up a suicide attempt I was placed in a foster home by a mental health organisation.
But here in NZ we have the highest or second highest suicide rate in the Western world (just behind or equal to Japan I think) so there probably isnt the facilities to hospitalise suicidal people long term.
Personally I cant see how hospitalisation will help your cause at all, if it were me I would scream and scratch and fart and run or do anything I could to avoid the men in white coats

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Yeah NZ really doesn't seem to care, i've told my psychologist of my suicidal thoughts before - they showed genuine concern but certainly nothing like hospital.

Whether thats a good thing or not is debateable I guess. One things for sure Mad Cat, taking your life isn't outsmarting anyone :? , so I hope for your sake you don't go down that rather permanent route.

I dont know about you guys, but anti-depressants really aren't that bad, my dads been on a concoction of them for the last 20 years - he's fine, well certainly better than when he wasn't on them!

If it were me, i'd take the meds over anything as drastic as suicide - lieing is a fine tactic too I guess, just so long as you're sure you can get better alone.

Lol that's a good little reply with lots of hidden things in there. One of the strongest things that looks liek to me is hinting at religion, which I don't give a fuck about.

Or just afterlife? Or maybe it's just a funny joke..weee

Anyway being hospitalized is like a completely suicide for me. These fools think they got me worked out but they have no idea.

I'm not gonna kill myself but I'll not be responsible if they kill me instead.