Is This Normal?

Is it wrong not to care about anyone anymore? Is it wrong the human kind just doesn't do it for me anymore?

I have worked in the social care field for four years now. I have been in my current new role for almost three months. I'm 50/50. I care about ensuring I can do my work on time and meet with my key clients on a weekly basis. But when they need extra help or request for more than I can give - I just don't care!

The truth is, I stop caring about people especially now for a long time. Way before I started this job. I have no motivation - just no care towards the people I have a duty of care for and no care for anyone else except my family. I don't even care about me.

Maybe I am burnout. Maybe it's the anxiety and depression. Or maybe it's the job?

Who knows?

I get motivated and care about college. But I wonder is it normal for this type of behaviour?

But then again, what is normal?

Depression and anxiety can suck dry every bit of energy you have in your system just to survive and get through each day.
It is not surprising you simply have no energy left to 'go the extra mile' for your clients.

It's like when your brain senses that you are in a physically dangerous situation it temporarily shuts down your 'unnecessary' bodily systems in that moment.
It can then prioritise the sending of more of your blood to your muscles to aid in the 'fight or flight' response to maintain your safety.
Therefore your digestive system for example, is shut down until the danger has past.

So your body is just prioritising by putting most of your mental energy into you surviving through each day with anxiety and depression, therefore you have no 'surplus' mental energy to do more than your job requires.

The only thing I care about now is my Mom. I feel disconnected from everything and everyone else for the most part.