dannyboy65
Well-known member
Life has been going great this whole school year. For once I was getting help and keeping my life together. I was finally fighting back against my schizophrenia, I was fighting my autism, and my anxiety wasn't terrible, even my depression. Now for the summer I'm stuck at this campground I go to so I can work during the summer as I live in the middle of no where. I can't stand this place, it makes my schizophrenia go off the walls. I'm always scared of something during the night that I can't sleep. During the day I sit in silence listening to the damn voices in my head. Every summer I have been here something bad happens. This place is known by others as peaceful, for me it reminds me of terrible times. I'm sitting here in the dark having an anxiety attack over absolutely nothing it just happens now there is no warning or trigger. I just want a normal life. I can't even have that, I try so hard I put all my strength into having one. I just want to give up, but I keep pushing myself through. I even feel awkward typing this. Autism is a big enough task to beat, but do I really need all of these other illness's. I'm to scared to reach out for help, I feel I was already a big enough pain to deal with.
