Getting OUT of this house

It seems I am screwed now. My brother and sister don't talk to me, and I have for too long weighed this guilt upon my shoulders. They ignore me and make me feel like ****, blaming me for stuff and accusing me of stuff.

Truthfully they are worst of than me, they are more scared to talk to people and go out in public than I am. So I have the upper hand, but I'm still pretty much at the bottom.

It's taking me a long time to get over this, I thought that I could depend on them, but I'm slowly and surely realizing that they are really bad for my mental health. I've tried to spend time and do things with them, but they don't enjoy life apparently, and usually when I'm off for so many days I realize how bad it is to be in the house.

I need to stay out of the house more, but I don't have many places to go, all boring places, and I have no people I can call to hang out with.

What should I do? I have to spend time outside of the house but my job gives me very few hours.

I'm looking for another job, but it's not easy.

I would love if I could move into an apartment. No disrespect to my family, I don't hate them, I just don't like being around them.

Hah, I feel the same. Although its the opposite for my siblings, it seems they are having more fun than me. At times i find myself alone in the house, while everyone is out places and myself on the internet. Lately, I'm very depressed and sluggish because i've been in the house too much. I have nothing to go to except for collge, but school only adds more stress and anxiety, and lately i've been questioning why i went to college in the first place. This is my last year, and i've yet to make a good friend. What will happen after college, that's currently the thing that's making me so depressed....

You shouldn't move into an apartment, seeing how you have a job that offers you few hours. You might have problems paying rent and other stuff. I know it might sound like a good idea, but it's not. Debt will only add more stress to you, but if you're rich, then by all means go for it.

They don't like you and you don't like being around them? If you all have social problems that's a pretty hard situation to solve. I mean, someone has got to step in and get you three to be mutual. Usually, the oldest of the siblings should take this up. I'm assuming this is you as it's more common for younger siblings to despise older siblings than the other way around. Did you ever bully them at any point? You kind of disowned them when you said they are more scared to talk to people and go out in public than you are. Assuming you suffer from SA, I figure you should definately understand what they go through if anyone should. There must be some reason why they are acting that way towards you. Perhaps you should invite them when you go out. All three of you together at a movie or something... I don't know. Who am I to suggest anyways? I am very withdrawn from my family. I suppose in a perfect world I wouldn't be. Good luck to your situation.

Well I meant to say that I want a job that pays decently enough for me to move out first. There is no way in HECK that I would try to get an apartment now, I can barely buy food, and I can't buy clothes.

I actually miss being in school, at least some people made attempts to communicate verbally with me there.

Sad to say, nobody is going to step in and be mutual with us three. I've been trying to do it for years now, with the same results. That's why I "disowned" them. I've spent way too much time thinking about this. I go places with my sister sometimes, but my brother never wants to go anywhere no matter the weather. I always invite them.

I am the middle child. Thanks for your suggestion, it made me realize a bit more of this situation. It seems they value computer use more than speaking to siblings which is bullcrap to me. I'm withdrawn from my family also, but I don't want to be withdrawn from public, because it's my only hope to remain sane.

yeh i'm living at home at the moment looking for employment everyday to replace my casual job and if i ever want to go somewhere i have to justify everything, like i feel that i can't just go somewhere whenever i feel like it because there are people in the house who have to know everything. sometimes i've had this response "why are you going there now? why not wait until tommorrow" and there is me thinking "because i bloody well feel like going out you annoying *!@#$ .." ok thats a little harsh but when i rented on my own for three years i had that total freedom to be myself without having to validate every decision. and my parents also monitor computer usage so looking at youtube or downloading music is pretty much a "no no" even though that is partly why the internet exists, parents seem to completely abandon logic so they can maintain control, they want you to know that they are in charge and its their territory and rules are rules. i've noticed when i get into arguments with them and i have a strong opinion they will often say to me "you're just wrong, and we are right" as if their opinion is the only mathematical equation that is the only possible outcome. "that's not how its done, you do it like this" ....they believe their opinions are always right even though they arn't always at all...its like flogging a dead horse. i really need to move out as soon as i can so i can get that total freedom back but i appreciate them allowing me to return home for a place to stay for a bit.