Hello,
I have to get this off my chest, but I feel emotionally blocked or atleast in the display of my emotions. Like a hand is clenched tightly around me anytime I experience an emotion and want to display it. I instantly switch over to cramped mode whenever I feel the desire to externalise an emotion. I hardly express - or maybe it's even more correct to say I supress the display of my - emotions. This makes it really hard to do anything: connect with people, be passionate about anything, advance as an artist.
I am an emotional person but stripped of my ability to externalise my emotions which makes me kind of trapped in myself to use a cliché of sorts.
My grandfather was not an easy man but I kind of envy him in the way he could express himself. He was very dominant but yeah he was "pure/brut"...
Ofcourse I am a different person but I feel I have inherited some of his abilities/characteristics(emotional, dominant(rather negative...)) but can't make use of them......
I have to get this off my chest, but I feel emotionally blocked or atleast in the display of my emotions. Like a hand is clenched tightly around me anytime I experience an emotion and want to display it. I instantly switch over to cramped mode whenever I feel the desire to externalise an emotion. I hardly express - or maybe it's even more correct to say I supress the display of my - emotions. This makes it really hard to do anything: connect with people, be passionate about anything, advance as an artist.
I am an emotional person but stripped of my ability to externalise my emotions which makes me kind of trapped in myself to use a cliché of sorts.
My grandfather was not an easy man but I kind of envy him in the way he could express himself. He was very dominant but yeah he was "pure/brut"...
Ofcourse I am a different person but I feel I have inherited some of his abilities/characteristics(emotional, dominant(rather negative...)) but can't make use of them......