Cant Sleep

for the past decade of my life & i never was able to instantly fall asleep becuz i always have those horrible ideas from the past about how i failed to stand up to myself... now i learned my lesson & wont let it happen again but every nite i go 2 bed i stay at least an hour lying awake with those thoughts coming in my head & how i could have done at that day that could have changed the past... i cant get rid of them no matter how i try to ignore & forget about them... they stick in my head all the time & im always nervous with people no matter how much of a natural person i look to them... i always feel like i am missing something others dont lack in life...

I would suggest that you get better educated on the matter of constructive thought processes so that you begin to view things differently.
I found "How to stop worrying and start living" by Dale Carnegie to be very useful.

I know what ya mean I have had trouble getting to sleep for pretty much for as long as I can remember...Have you tried any kind of relaxation tape? I had one by Iris Barrow and I thought it was pretty good it helped me, but there are heaps or other ones out there maybe you could go to the library and have a look there...