Avoiding people you know from your past

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Yes I feel that same for some people. But if they are simply friends or classmates there's no problem, but people from work and such.

Another thing of avoiding people from past, an old classmate since 8th grade and I think. I hope that I will never see him again. He is the only person I wish would die. I just wish I could be told some day that he have died in a car crash. I'm not much for suffering. I just want him to die, removed from this world. I could never kill anyone myself though. I saw not too long ago that a friend of mine had added him as friend on facebook. Just seeing his name there makes me a little bit scared and turns me down.

Kien - i think you should reconsider what you just said about wanting someone else to die. I dont think anybody truly wants that to happen and we should never talk about it.

i know what you mean about seeing people from the past. I am always worried about what they are thinking. It sounds stupid i know, but i always think they will judge me or will think i am pathetic. I try to avoid these situations and would never go to a school reunion or anything like that.

Many are the times i just pretend i dont recognize a person or that i just didnt see it. Its realy horrible, because i know its stupid, but i am always afraid of rejection, so i do it first and the result is often persons get desapointed and sad whith me.
I hate myself for not being able to stop doing it.
Ikeep pushing people away.
The few friends i have been able to make i just cant keep, and the new persons i meet just get bad vibes from me.

I do the same thing. I pretend i don't see the person. I've done with friends too. I don't know why but I go into a minor panic when I see someone I know when I'm out. I'm afraid that I'll say something stupid or that I won't know what to say and they will see how nervous I am. I've lost friends because of it. I'm now trying to make myself go and talk to people if I see them out.