InDeepshit

InDeepshit

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    ((hugs)) hope things get better!! It's easy to get addicted to these online sites, it's good to get out and do some things in RL ('real world') too!!
    Maybe at least take a walk? Do some fun (or good-scary) RL things? (eg things you always wanted, but were afraid of? good & constructive things, of course!) And maybe when you get back, you'll be more full of energy and the people will 'like' you again!! Or you'll find new and awesome people?? Fingers crossed!!
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    Btw, I think Im about to get myself banned from this forum cuz i totally said a bunch of racist stuff. Turns out, people don't like racists....go figure, anyhizzle just letn' ya know:D
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    lol haha. I wasnt afraid of planes until i saw something on the discovery channel. I wont tell u because u will be completely freaked out. lol. But yea once you get up there, its smooth sailing. Hope the family reunion goes good though!!
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    lol ur lucky. N yea i know how work goes. I worked my way through high school and it definitely wasnt fun lol. If only money grew on trees... Chile sounds fun though. U ever been?
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    lol, i know how that goes. I cant wait for christmas holidays. 3 weeks of SLEEP!! lol. Im good, just trying to finish my classes and things. School is stress in itself lol
    Fear of people
    Hi InDeepshit, love the name by the way' and thanx for excepting my friendship invite. You and I have spoken to each other on chatbox several times and I enjoy the conversations you and I have had along the way and hope to see you on chatbox again some time, so for now though take care my friend.
    Fear of people
    Hello InDeepshit, I'm also an Aussie and live in Sydney and have seen you on Chatbox now and then. I have sent you a friendship request and hope you will except my offer and hope to hear from you soon.
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    Well same here. Takin it one day at a time. Just dreading when school starts in a couple of weeks. Getting my last bit of vacation in. lol. Glad that ur ok tho. Keep ur head up!!!
    InDeepshit
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    Playing the music loudly in the car to try to enjoy myself but i just feel self conscious that people are looking at me.. so my eyes water and i look down and concentrate on relaxing. I pass a convertable with two girls giggling and singing out loud to the music they're playing they're so carefree. Get to the shops, walk around trying to avoid eye contact .. my eyes glazed from nervousness and i'm blushed. Can't relax anywhere and then i spend excessively on things i don't need to get because i'm just going through actions to prevent my anxiety from escalating. watch a movie and it's enjoyable. get back home and log in, try to find somewhere to fit and not sound so low and dull .. realise that people don't know me or care about me online and i'll always be lonely because i don't care either, everyone is a stranger. But this is all i really have to distract me
    InDeepshit
    YouTube - Pink Floyd The Wall - Pink Floyd - Comfortably Numb

    i'm so depressed. i HATE sounding like an emo but i guess it's what i am. dull expression, can't have fun. ****s sake today i woke up , logged into a chat and just waited as i do most days. Finally get up and i get ready, i spending excessive time on taking care of myself physically knowing how shallow it is .. taking comfort in the fact that i'm improving myself but knowing it's a distraction. then i drive a parent to work... i barely talk to them in the car and i make an effort to by cracking a joke. Poor attempts at maintaining more conversation... left unfulfilled. Then i drive to the city and have these ideas of something spontaneous i could do ... like stopping by a busy suburb... i just suppress it and continue to my destination feeling unsettled that i'm never going to change.
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