conscious_mindz
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Hello i will try & keep this as short as i can& get to the point, i suffer from SAD ive had it for as long as i can remember, but i think i suffer from AVPD also, the reason i say this is i have the regular SAD symtoms etc,, but my facial expressions rarely change..if someone told me to smile i wouldnt be able to do it, if someone said make a funny/silly face i wouldnt be able to do it, it almost feels like the skin on my face is tight & expressionless, when i look in the mirror i can sort of see the anxiety in my face all the time, also my family have never heard me laugh / sing / dance / tell a joke etc.. when i was young id sit in my room on my own & never feel like i belonged anywhere, i was living with family but felt like a lodger / stranger.. i wander if i have more than just SAD.. are the things ive said in this msg along the lines of AVPD ? also i find it very difficult to maintain eye contact with my family, it feels like when i look my parents in the eyes when they talk to me it feels like im scaring them / making them uneasy, my sisters children rarely see me as i just cant relax & i feel as if i would make them uneasy also, i just feel lonely & lost & feel like i dont belong anywhere & trying to find the answers so i can make sense of how i act & feel & view myself as a person, also ex girlfriends of mine have called me boring / monotone voice & one girl said she couldnt tell when i was happy / excited / sad etc..my face dosnt show any signs of happiness , im unable to change my facial expressions into excitement . happy etc.. any info would be great to hear 
im sorry if the msg if jumbled up but my mind is kinda jumbled up & my msg may seem all over the place
im sorry if the msg if jumbled up but my mind is kinda jumbled up & my msg may seem all over the place