Analyzing Social Anxiety

I want to talk about my own social anxiety, but I think some of you will relate. Well, I always hide within my mind when I'm with people. I never feel a connection, I always look away, put my head down, turn my body away from people etc. People never feel comfortable around me, I can see and feel this.

It just happens, without any effort. It's the way I am, I feel that it is beyond my control. I'm very internally minded. I can't relate with the world. I live in my own head. I think and feel so much that I don't need external stimulation. The many thoughts and emotions I have prevent me from relating to other people or the outside world. I don't have any energy left to deal with the external world..

My own thoughts and emotions are so strong that they seem to replace interaction with real human beings. I have a very rich inner world. I can think of something and laugh on my own. Other people only laugh when they see things or hear jokes from other people, because their brain works differently. Their brain is directed to the outside world.

But WHY am I like this, why am I different? I have thought about this a lot lately. Here is my conclusion; for some reason, my brain is extremely sensitive to external stimulation. It is NOT my fault. I was born this way! My mind is too busy; I have too many thoughts and emotions, which prevent me from dealing with the external world.

I like to put it this way-
"I am a prisoner of my own mind, slave of my own thoughts, bound in shackles of my own imagination, trapped in dungeons made by myself."

Well said. My brain reflects on things, even small details, on a much deeper level (compared to most people), which leaves me totally exhausted and unable to deal with normal activities or social relationships.

i know right i always over think every situation and what people say,i guess the reason is because i worry to much about other people.

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Argamemnon says:

Well said. My brain reflects on things, even small details, on a much deeper level (compared to most people), which leaves me totally exhausted and unable to deal with normal activities or social relationships.


That´s the same happened to me when I closed myself in my bedroom, in my mind in my own thoughts for seven years. I felt sure in my own world. But if you make a effort to open you can find lots os intersting people outside.
I didn´t like tribial conversations. But I´m discovering now, there are very interesting people. The first time my level of anxiety was very higher but you really enjoy when notice that each step you do is better to the former (your anxiety level decreases). Trust me. Open to people, slowly but without pause. Repeat it, repeat it over and over again.

It's not only because I have isolated myself for 7 years. I was always like this. I was always very sensitive to external stimulation. But it has become worse because of isolation, that is true