cowboyup
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I just had a go around with my brother. We hugged in the end, so that's good, but now I feel bad and kinda like crying. I admit, it was my own darn fault.
It started when he asked how things are going. I said fine, but that my car insurance was due to be cancelled if not paid on the 3rd. He asked how much, and gave me money to cover it. I am thankful for that
However, with that came the "why didn't you tell me before" "you can't wait til the last minute" and "car insurance is vitally important, don't you understand that" and finally the MOM comparison. That's what got me and sunk in.
He said, "don't be like mom was and wait til the last minute to pay something, ultimately you will end up paying it".....etc.
Anyhow, since my SA has gotten worse I find I am more apt to NOT speak what's on my mind, I don't speak up, I figure things are my problem and I don't want to bother anyone else with them. I procrastinate like never before...I'm inconsistent and a scatterbrain, especially it seems lately I can't concentrate/focus.
NO, I don't want to blame SA for all this, but if I don't take my medicine I fall into this pattern it seems. When I had a real job, I never was like this, I kept up on my bills on time, no problem with procrastination, if I had a problem or question or issue, I would ask or say something to help resolve it. Now, I am like the opposite person in all that.
When I run out of my meds (like now) I begin to realize how important they are that I keep up and take it. But with no health insurance, that becomes problematic at times to keep a regular schedule to go to the dr.
Any advice on how to better speak my mind, better motivate myself to do better?
(other than get your meds!) lol
It started when he asked how things are going. I said fine, but that my car insurance was due to be cancelled if not paid on the 3rd. He asked how much, and gave me money to cover it. I am thankful for that
However, with that came the "why didn't you tell me before" "you can't wait til the last minute" and "car insurance is vitally important, don't you understand that" and finally the MOM comparison. That's what got me and sunk in.
He said, "don't be like mom was and wait til the last minute to pay something, ultimately you will end up paying it".....etc.
Anyhow, since my SA has gotten worse I find I am more apt to NOT speak what's on my mind, I don't speak up, I figure things are my problem and I don't want to bother anyone else with them. I procrastinate like never before...I'm inconsistent and a scatterbrain, especially it seems lately I can't concentrate/focus.
NO, I don't want to blame SA for all this, but if I don't take my medicine I fall into this pattern it seems. When I had a real job, I never was like this, I kept up on my bills on time, no problem with procrastination, if I had a problem or question or issue, I would ask or say something to help resolve it. Now, I am like the opposite person in all that.
When I run out of my meds (like now) I begin to realize how important they are that I keep up and take it. But with no health insurance, that becomes problematic at times to keep a regular schedule to go to the dr.
Any advice on how to better speak my mind, better motivate myself to do better?
(other than get your meds!) lol