This is the story of my life. I have to appear confident, happy, and outgoing. At home and in the work place, they have no idea of my issues and struggles. Ive had to create this facade, in order to work in the environments that Ive held employment in.
At home... I have a big family, of happy, loud, and extroverted family members. They'd never understand my depression or issues. Aside from that, there's no use in worrying them over something they can't help me with. Im known as the party pooper because I like to stay in and read... or when i simply just want to be alone. lil things like that, show that it wouldn't be easy to accept or understand that Im not happy all the time, and that I may not be what they've perceived of me.
At this point its easier to continue faking it. Somedays, however... you're tired of being what they want to see. Its exhausting.
But to get ahead in the work place, this has definitely helped. And has even made me push myself a lil harder.