EscapeArtist
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Ok well... this is Nothing like me. I don't believe in medication. I don't know why i'm doing it but i'm trying Zoloft. Nor do I know why i'm making it such a big deal... oh maybe because Prozac almost made me kill myself. I guess that makes sense then. I know all medications react to people differently, including different SSRIs, but i'm so scared to try another one because of what I lost when I went on Prozac. Prozac gave me an eating disorder that, a year later, is still controlling my life.
The doctor wasn't going to perscribe it to me, he thought it was best I get a full checkup, and go to his psychiatrist and find something that would be less likely to affect me negatively. But my mom just wouldn't have it, and had to cause a big scene, and the doctor decided to give it to us anyways. She's really pushing it on me, and it's starting to get to me, and I almost think that I should just try it... I know it's against all my beliefs. But I really want to stop anxiety-eating, and I only have 19% this term in some subjects, and i'm an A student without anxiety... ugh.
But I need to make sure i'm safe! So because nobody else (aka family) will listen to a word I say because they're all too caught up in their own lives, ("Hey [sister], want to help me decide if Zoloft is a another life threatening idea?" sister:" SHHH i'm trying to read!") i'm going to document how I feel on here, because i'm to scared to go it alone...And I don't even want to do this in the first place, but i'm so desperate! Even if it works, i'm going to HATE being reliant on it. RELIANCE is a bitch.
So..this is my Zoloft journal. ::
The doctor wasn't going to perscribe it to me, he thought it was best I get a full checkup, and go to his psychiatrist and find something that would be less likely to affect me negatively. But my mom just wouldn't have it, and had to cause a big scene, and the doctor decided to give it to us anyways. She's really pushing it on me, and it's starting to get to me, and I almost think that I should just try it... I know it's against all my beliefs. But I really want to stop anxiety-eating, and I only have 19% this term in some subjects, and i'm an A student without anxiety... ugh.
But I need to make sure i'm safe! So because nobody else (aka family) will listen to a word I say because they're all too caught up in their own lives, ("Hey [sister], want to help me decide if Zoloft is a another life threatening idea?" sister:" SHHH i'm trying to read!") i'm going to document how I feel on here, because i'm to scared to go it alone...And I don't even want to do this in the first place, but i'm so desperate! Even if it works, i'm going to HATE being reliant on it. RELIANCE is a bitch.
So..this is my Zoloft journal. :
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