yet another step forward!

i just wanted to write this post to show that things arent always as hopeless as u think.

as most of u will have read i suffer from gad..sad..depression..panic attacks, an eating disorder and have terrible moods.

to sum it up i was livin my life in bed for a while. everythin was terrible. sleeping and eating was a disaster. did not c anyone other than my mam dad and sis for bout 6 months.

i have tho made a lot of progress cos i thought the best way to fight it all was to face my fears. i went from havin no job to a part time and now full time job in a pharmacy. i am also goin freelance as a beauty therapist as soon as the shop i will b workin in opens. i have been to shops..seen friends and even been to a party. i have now joined the gym and will b starting yoga..pilates..spinning..dance and aerobics aswell. i also exercise in my house..no longer let myself sleep thru the day. my eatin is alot better and i dont do silly things anymore. i also get dressed sometimes where as before i wouldnt get out of my pjs and spent months in them.

today i chucked out all my tablets...speed..asprin etc...that was a huge step cos they were a sort of addiction and coping mechanism. i also booked to c the hairdresser which normally causes me alot of anxiety cos of mirrors! i aint binged in a week either which is another coping mechanism of mine!

i hope this may show ppl that the fear of facing something is worth it in the end. once u have faced one fear..the rest arent as hard! u wont feel any lower than u do now and wont have any feelings u havent had or coped with before!

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Well done!

It seems you are on your way to a full recovery! I wish I could say the same of myself

Good luck!

Happy for you!

Its great to see the steps you've take Joanna! Im really happy for you
I wish i lived in England as we could go see a movie hehe *wink* lol

Well done Joanna.Its alway good to hear about people getting better.Looks like you got your sparkle back.

aw thanks all of ya! i really appreciate ya kind words and support. the sparkle is coming back a bit at a time! im more of a small twinkle than a sparkle! lol :wink:

went into another few shops today and the sunbed shop! startin to make really good friendships at work aswell! not countin me chickens but things r goin pretty well!

just a bit more progress made! but its a big step and im already nervous about it! i have just made official that im starting my own business with my friend. she is doin the hairdressing and i am havin the beauty. the shop is getting decorated at the mo and it should all open in 3 months. we will b doin press releases for all the local papers for the opening!! means my pic in the paper lol!

as its my own business i can work to suit me! the girl im workin with has suffered sp and bdd and bulimia..also post traumatic stress disorder! she is a really good mate! really understanding! i hope it all works out for us but if it dont at least i have tried!