Ultimate Loser

Is there anyone else on here that feels that they could qualify for this title? I've been struggling for months (years in fact) with Social Phobia, OCD, oversensitivity and other things that have caused me to become depressed. During the last six months I've really been battling with negative thoughts. Although it's been hard to think and feel very positive about anything in my life I've tried not to dwell on the bad points so much.

Since just before Christmas I started to get worse and my depression and SA have built up over the last couple of weeks. Today I feel as if my whole life is a fucking waste of time and that I'm a complete loser.

I don't have many friends but I virtually never get through to any of them these days. This has made me feel even more insular and I spend ages thinking about things (even about posting on here) but never actually doing them.


I hate myself and wish I was dead a lot of the time but I know that I'm not going to do anything to kill myself.

I'm new here (1st post). I have been depressed for a couple years now and have struggled with confronting people constantly. I worked in a warehouse for a year and always tried to avoid people as much as possible. I found myself always going to the toilets to get away from the stress of being around everyone. Anyway...things got so bad for me that i barely turned up for work, and to cut a long story short...it came to the day that i never went back. My boss tried ringing me but i never answer the phone, and when he came round my house to see what was wrong with me, i begged my dad to tell him i was out.
Anyway, i never did go back and sent but letter of apology.

It was February 05 when i quit, and i haven't been able to work anywhere since then...that's a whole year!! I have spent the whole year inside my house and avoided all contact with my friends, and even my family. I have missed all family meals and celebrations (Xmas etc..). I spend most of my time in my bedroom away from everyone...and only go out at night (as it is dark so people won't see me easily) to walk around or cycle just to get out of the house.

My parents are really nice people, but have really had enough of me not working. They have payed £1000 of my loan over the year i haven't worked so i understand their anger completely. I have spoke a few times with them, but they dont understand i struggle to even see a doctor for help!

This week things have made a turn for the worst, and my Dad has said if i dont have a job by the end of the week (Fri - Tomorrow!) then i have to leave home as they can't support me any longer .....So very possibly by tomorrow i may be forced to live on the streets as i have nowhere to go. All this anger and stress from everyone doesnt help atall. By tomorrow i'll find out how serious the situation will be, and i'll be stuck from there!...................I can't even step outside my house in the day, let alone live outside.....hmm...............

......If anyone can help with advice it would be great. Also i'd like to hear what other people do for jobs who can't face people???
...I'd like to preferably work from home ...............

I also can not work with or around others. I have been looking around for legitimate jobs in which you can work from home. Data entry and medical transcription jobs are available and allow you to work from home. You usually are required to be a good typer for these jobs. For medical transcription you have to take a training course first, which you can take from home. Check out these sites below, they might be of some help to you.

http://www.moneymakingmommy.com/

http://www.moneymakingmommy.com/no-fee-work-at-home-jobs/index.htm

http://www.aamt.org/ScriptContent/mtapproved.cfm

http://www.pcdi.com/courses/yy/?cod...EDICAL+TRANSCRIPTION&kw=MEDICAL+TRANSCRIPTION

Thankyou for the help. Although i forgot to mention i live in England. But i will use the information from those sites to help me find a similar type of opportunity in the UK.


On another note...had a little chat with the parents and they starting to understand i need to get some sort of help, instead of them being angry with me for not getting a job. So hopefully someday soon i will accept help from a Doctor...because i'm not up for the challenge yet ........ :?

Don u sound a bit like me dude i usually like going out at night cos it just feels easier and i hardly walk anywhere if im going somewhere im usually on my mountine bike my dad got fed up off me years ago cos of not working back then i did'nt really care about work but i want to work now but my illness stops me got agrophobia get depressed cos i cant do things times i feel like worthless but force my self to think positive i would'nt mind an online job either but dunno where 2 look im from uk 2

Yeah it's very hard to find something. I am still unemployed, and the parents are getting on my case to get a job again... I've thought about becoming a courier/driver, which would suit me just fine as i can work on my own accord and i won't have to work with people i don't like, and i also won't have a boss breathing down my neck all the time. But to do this i need to earn some money initially to buy my own van, and get insurance and so on... I'm gonna spend the rest of today looking hard on the net for something suitable...
Stick around here Dilzem, and we can share info if one of us finds anything

All i have found on the net is scams u dont know if its legit or not

I think the best way is to find something from a local company that will let you work at home... Most of the stuff on the net are scams. http://www.homeworking.com/discus/index.html this place may be helpful

Yeah i've been looking on that site last weekend was a bit gutted cos they reackon most of what u see on the net is scams i will look through that site again if i find anything i'll let u know i found these links on there maybe usefull
http://www.real-home-employment.com/

http://www.ukbest50.co.uk/rank.asp?Section_No=108&section_name=Other Careers&page_type=sub

if u ave any luck let us know :wink:

If only it was that easy.Most work at home jobs don't actually say work at home jobs.They are jobs that just happens to allow the option of working at home.Most of the stuff out there are just scams.

yeah that's right...as i said, the most realistic way is to find local companies that are willing to provide "Outwork" etc.