tidal wave...of anxiety

..so..i had a pretty good day yesterday...went out to grocery store with a friend, convenience store, even went to friend's house to sit around pool for a while....pretty decent day overall....then, lying in bed last night....it hit me like a huge tidal wave...and settled in my stomach...huge pang of anxiety...and why?... i don't know....no reason i suppose...just the way it goes...up and down i guess...and i couldn't sleep...and i'm worrying about nothing...and everything...if that makes sense. :? ...and sometimes i wonder how much more energy and positive thinking and telling myself..."you can do this"," it won't be so bad", "don't dwell on the past", "my live is controlled by me and my choices"...that i have left ....:roll: ..sometimes i just feel so extremely exhausted with the whole thing.....sorry, i have been trying to post only positive stuff lately...and this is so unpositive....it's just you are the only people on earth that understand how i feel....thanks for "listening" :wink:

thanks worrydoll.....i guess i just get so angry, when i think i'm making some kind of progress....then, it comes right back...and again, back to square one.....some days i don't have the energy to get back up and fight this fuckin feeling......makes me maddddd :evil: ...but worrydoll, your words made me feel better

I know how you feel also. It's so hard to talk yourself out of that strong anxiety, especially if you have no idea what you're so worried about. I usually just let the anxiety happen, and realize that it always passes. And it's so hard at night to get it to go away, because it's not like you can jump up and start making noise or go out in the daylight. We are sorta confined to our beds so we don't wake up the rest of the world. And for anyone with an anxiety disorder, laying there drowning in the worry just sucks.

Hope tonight is better for you. This too shall pass.

exactly that's how it usually goes...

that is quite normal, though it may be damn discouraging..

thing is, that you stay determined and dont give up..

I know this isn't the best solution, but I've been staying up real late keeping myself occupied until I'm almost to tired to do anything so that I don't have to replay my whole day or go through worries about the future and regrets about the past before I get to sleep. It kinda works...I still do this, but at least I don't do it for hours anymore...i dunno...prolly not any help but it's 2 here and i'm trying to stay occupied .

Hi Maggie 8)
i understand just what yu mean. Feels like a kick in the teeth doesn't it!
I have to try to give myself a break when this happens and try to brush it off. " Just like I do when I get on the bathroom scales lol :lol:
Jules

I can completely sympathize. And I understand having it after the fact also. I just had a very bad panic attack suddenly earlier. With me, if I feel on the verge of having one for a while (like being out or feeling stressed about situations going on) and then I feel relief from it (like getting home or a resolution) then the panic attack likes to happen sometimes, all of a sudden, without warning, and very severely. Like it has me laying down in bed too, not able to speak just shake and cry until I breathe and calm down enough to put my pieces back together again.