turqoise
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Had consultation with my naturopath yesterday, after worried about my anxiety levels and irritability. She prescribed vitamin C, herbal Formula, Siberian ginseng and high potency DHA, in addition to the other natural supplements which I am already taking (which have really gotten rid of a lot of my depression).
POSITIVES AFTER TAKING the new supplements-
-I could remember bits of the consultation visually and audially for the first time in about 15 years! I could actually remember, like a clear video playing through my head, parts of the consultation earlier in the day - iI could actually see her infront of me, see what colour her top was, what her voice sounded like, and see exactly the words she was saying. I had completely forgotten that I could even do that! These years I had been struggling to remember what I had had for breakfast, and even when I did, it was a vague foggy feeling, not a clear image...my memory was sooooo bad and i thought i was so dumb.
-I am dreaming for the first time in about 15 years. I thought it wasn`t anything abnormal that my sleeps were total blanks, but now I wonder if dreaming is connected with some part of the brain, and that it has been inactive until now.
-My sentences are longer, and I can afford the energy to be polite, not just state what I need. Before I`d have just enough energy to say things like `lunch`. but yesterday i found my energy went way past that and thought about the other person`s feelings (!!) and how I should decorate my words:`hey dad, what can i have for lunch?`.
-My eye movements are instantaneous! I never even knew they had slowed in the first place....yesterday a bird came to perch outside, and I flicked my eyes over to it sooo fast. I was also able to acknowledge what I saw instantaneously, and at the SAME time keep track of what i was watchingon tv. Before, my attention would have first shifted to the window, taken a second to absorb the bird, then taken another second to go bakc to tv and remember what I was watching again. It was like lightening this time. My eye movements are scarily fast.
-My calculation speed went up, from probably about 40% the day before to about 80% (it was even worse at my most depressed time when I was suicidal - prob about 10% - my thinking was SO slow). I tried out the calculation site. wow. before I would get stuck for half a second on one sum; it would take even a couple of seconds to figure it out, but yesterday, I was looking about 3 sums ahead, solving them instantanously. I say 80% because every few sums I would take longer than instantaneously to figure out a sum and I think that was my brain slowing down.
-I felt somehow clear and refreshed inside. Body felt solid but head felt clear. I even think my posture is better - not sure why...could be that I have energy to hold myself up, or could be that i feel lighter, or both.
-Able to write down stuff in diary – wheras I couldn`t get enough energy to before. I am writing, and thikning and verbalising a whole lot more. I feel like an emerging fountain of thoughts and words, wheras before it was like crawling through a desert to grab each word to say out loud.
-Feeling more pain – eg. When I pinch the skin on my hand, I had a hugely high threshold before - I could lift it up at least an inch and would feel no pain at all; now, I pinch a bit and if I do it too hard it already feels like I`m going to bruise.
-Suddenly feel like dressing better, and have stronger preferences of what.
-Actually joked and had fun with my dad last night – I think how I was laughing was different – carefree for the first time in years. (though he hit a sore spot when he told me I can`t make friends because I have a persistant personality. actually I think this is more conditioning - I have been so rejected over the years that I subconsciously try to get all I can from someone if they pay attention to me. realised this through EFT - check out my other post in the social anxiety forum; I have posted links). My words just trip out very lightly, wheras before they were very sluggish and weighted.
-I feel like my mind `blank` times, are not quite as fogged up as before – my brain stays plugged in to some extent. Over the years I have had increasing times where i would just blank out and not absorb anything. I feel like my brain is too engaged, interested and able to tackle thinking about anything simultaneously, to want to zone out like that. That`s another first in about 10 years.
-I feel like leaving the house for a bit and exploring the local shops!!! I know I`ll get tired easily, but wow, this is pretty insane!
IN SUMMARY: generally feelslike some dormant area of my brain has been activated and is spluttering into start again, with stimulation from these herbs. It`s unbelievable – I thought I was going dumb, or that I had actually always been dumb without realizing when I couldn`t keep up with conversations, or when I just couldn`t remember things I studied and it took me soooo much repetition to learn something new. I was beginning to doubt that I would have the brains to be able to survive in society, and it crossed my mind several times in the last few months, the dread that there was no way I could do anything on my own. I feel like my poor old brain was losing a part of it over 15 years, and I didn`t realize, and now I feel little bouts of how I thought 15 years ago…it`s unbelievable. All this is just from yesterday - but I just wanted to share this with you because it`s as if I was going blind and someone gave me something and my eyesight is coming back...I`m generally quite cautious, so I will just see how things goover the next few weeks.
But yeah, I owe this change to EFT and seeing a great naturopath I think.
If you are going to see a naturopath, I have gone through trial and error, and have come to the conclusion that you have to know what they specialise in. Some of them specialise in counselling and therapy, some of them are pretty much like nutritionists - different people are better suited to certain things, I`d say. The naturopath that I have settled on after seeing 3 of them, (two of which didn`t seem to know or weren`t able to explain what was happening to me so well) is a girl who is naturopath, medical herbalist, ayurveda lifestyle consultant. she also does nutrition education, deep tissue and ayurvedic massage. I felt she was good because she was able to explain what was happening to me, (eg. that the reason I was getting iritabble was because the emotions that were numb during depression were coming out, which was a good thing. but that when I feel a negative emotion it releases certain hormones which should be exercised off, but that they get stored and pent up if they`re not, which makes the irritability get worse. So by doing exercise I use up those hormones and clear my system), plus she looked carefully at the ingredients of the supplements and explained the proportions I should be taking and why, and what I was missing. She also explained what I might be feeling and what would change once I started taking the additional supplements she prescribed.
POSITIVES AFTER TAKING the new supplements-
-I could remember bits of the consultation visually and audially for the first time in about 15 years! I could actually remember, like a clear video playing through my head, parts of the consultation earlier in the day - iI could actually see her infront of me, see what colour her top was, what her voice sounded like, and see exactly the words she was saying. I had completely forgotten that I could even do that! These years I had been struggling to remember what I had had for breakfast, and even when I did, it was a vague foggy feeling, not a clear image...my memory was sooooo bad and i thought i was so dumb.
-I am dreaming for the first time in about 15 years. I thought it wasn`t anything abnormal that my sleeps were total blanks, but now I wonder if dreaming is connected with some part of the brain, and that it has been inactive until now.
-My sentences are longer, and I can afford the energy to be polite, not just state what I need. Before I`d have just enough energy to say things like `lunch`. but yesterday i found my energy went way past that and thought about the other person`s feelings (!!) and how I should decorate my words:`hey dad, what can i have for lunch?`.
-My eye movements are instantaneous! I never even knew they had slowed in the first place....yesterday a bird came to perch outside, and I flicked my eyes over to it sooo fast. I was also able to acknowledge what I saw instantaneously, and at the SAME time keep track of what i was watchingon tv. Before, my attention would have first shifted to the window, taken a second to absorb the bird, then taken another second to go bakc to tv and remember what I was watching again. It was like lightening this time. My eye movements are scarily fast.
-My calculation speed went up, from probably about 40% the day before to about 80% (it was even worse at my most depressed time when I was suicidal - prob about 10% - my thinking was SO slow). I tried out the calculation site. wow. before I would get stuck for half a second on one sum; it would take even a couple of seconds to figure it out, but yesterday, I was looking about 3 sums ahead, solving them instantanously. I say 80% because every few sums I would take longer than instantaneously to figure out a sum and I think that was my brain slowing down.
-I felt somehow clear and refreshed inside. Body felt solid but head felt clear. I even think my posture is better - not sure why...could be that I have energy to hold myself up, or could be that i feel lighter, or both.
-Able to write down stuff in diary – wheras I couldn`t get enough energy to before. I am writing, and thikning and verbalising a whole lot more. I feel like an emerging fountain of thoughts and words, wheras before it was like crawling through a desert to grab each word to say out loud.
-Feeling more pain – eg. When I pinch the skin on my hand, I had a hugely high threshold before - I could lift it up at least an inch and would feel no pain at all; now, I pinch a bit and if I do it too hard it already feels like I`m going to bruise.
-Suddenly feel like dressing better, and have stronger preferences of what.
-Actually joked and had fun with my dad last night – I think how I was laughing was different – carefree for the first time in years. (though he hit a sore spot when he told me I can`t make friends because I have a persistant personality. actually I think this is more conditioning - I have been so rejected over the years that I subconsciously try to get all I can from someone if they pay attention to me. realised this through EFT - check out my other post in the social anxiety forum; I have posted links). My words just trip out very lightly, wheras before they were very sluggish and weighted.
-I feel like my mind `blank` times, are not quite as fogged up as before – my brain stays plugged in to some extent. Over the years I have had increasing times where i would just blank out and not absorb anything. I feel like my brain is too engaged, interested and able to tackle thinking about anything simultaneously, to want to zone out like that. That`s another first in about 10 years.
-I feel like leaving the house for a bit and exploring the local shops!!! I know I`ll get tired easily, but wow, this is pretty insane!
IN SUMMARY: generally feelslike some dormant area of my brain has been activated and is spluttering into start again, with stimulation from these herbs. It`s unbelievable – I thought I was going dumb, or that I had actually always been dumb without realizing when I couldn`t keep up with conversations, or when I just couldn`t remember things I studied and it took me soooo much repetition to learn something new. I was beginning to doubt that I would have the brains to be able to survive in society, and it crossed my mind several times in the last few months, the dread that there was no way I could do anything on my own. I feel like my poor old brain was losing a part of it over 15 years, and I didn`t realize, and now I feel little bouts of how I thought 15 years ago…it`s unbelievable. All this is just from yesterday - but I just wanted to share this with you because it`s as if I was going blind and someone gave me something and my eyesight is coming back...I`m generally quite cautious, so I will just see how things goover the next few weeks.
But yeah, I owe this change to EFT and seeing a great naturopath I think.
If you are going to see a naturopath, I have gone through trial and error, and have come to the conclusion that you have to know what they specialise in. Some of them specialise in counselling and therapy, some of them are pretty much like nutritionists - different people are better suited to certain things, I`d say. The naturopath that I have settled on after seeing 3 of them, (two of which didn`t seem to know or weren`t able to explain what was happening to me so well) is a girl who is naturopath, medical herbalist, ayurveda lifestyle consultant. she also does nutrition education, deep tissue and ayurvedic massage. I felt she was good because she was able to explain what was happening to me, (eg. that the reason I was getting iritabble was because the emotions that were numb during depression were coming out, which was a good thing. but that when I feel a negative emotion it releases certain hormones which should be exercised off, but that they get stored and pent up if they`re not, which makes the irritability get worse. So by doing exercise I use up those hormones and clear my system), plus she looked carefully at the ingredients of the supplements and explained the proportions I should be taking and why, and what I was missing. She also explained what I might be feeling and what would change once I started taking the additional supplements she prescribed.
