portal said:
I have this boy I like, well my boyfriend but anyway, I seem to be pushing him away, I am beginning to stop talking to him, I am beginning to argue with him, over stupid little things... I just don't know why I am pushing him away, I wan him with me, I don't want to drive him away. So why am I pushing him away?
Are you honest in expressing how you feel towards him? Are you true to your own feelings and desires?
By not talking to him, your feelings towards him are dishonest, because it makes absolutely no sence to push him away. Do you tell him how much you enjoy being around him, do you enjoy the intimacy? Playing aloof and hard to get, will only lead to hurt feelings. He likes you, you like him, you two are past the point of "playing it cool", stay true to your feelings.
When you argue over silly little things, it's interesting to ask yourself what is the real reason behind it. It's not the fact that he leaves the toilet seat up (random stuff that might annoy you) that actually bothers you all that much. Sure it might be annoying if you asked him to not do something and he agrees and then does it anyway, but it's nothing worth fighting over. Try to look past the surface, what's troubling you, why are you pushing him away. Is it that you fear rejection so much you would rather walk the path of self sabotage and kill all the intimacy you guys are enjoying right now.
This aloofness is obviously just a facade to hide your real feelings, your real emotions towards him
and towards yourself in particular. Tell him how you feel, let him know what's on your mind. Your BF will love the fact that you are showing your true self and you want him to be part of your world. Personally I find this a bonding experience, I love to know what's on my girlfriends mind.
Don't expect him to read your mind, because he can't. Stay true to your feelings always.
