I don’t know, I kind of just wake up and breathe. I exist, but that’s about it.
I don’t have any drive or inspiration right now, my identity is in a constant state of crisis because I don’t have anything to devote myself to.
I just try to enjoy nature and appreciate the small circle of support I have around me as a means of maintaining some kind of forward spiritual momentum.
My dog is definitely the one thing that keeps me going everyday.
For one, I always fear of what would happen to him if I was gone. I couldn't give up for adoption either.
He always puts a smile on my face. Sometimes he will cuddle up next to me and rest his head on my leg. Whenever he wants to play, he always makes me laugh because he hopes like a bunny when he is running after a ball or something.
I can talk to him and make jokes around him and he just sits and stares and wages his tail. He is so carefree. I could go on and on, but I won't haha.
So lucky I have him. I am thankful everyday that I am able to have him in my life.
I have moments where I'm happy and motivated, while other times I'm doubtful and depressed.
This is going to sound so stupid, but usually (certain) people inspire me to do things.
It's like, well, as crazy as this sounds ... there's a guy who inspires me. Don't worry, I'm not going in to detail (feels like I ramble too much) ...
This guy inspires me to do so much that I didn't think was possible. It's kinda like, I'll keep running until I reach him. I'll keep surviving because he is living and happy, and that's how I wanna be.
Oh, and getting to work with him someday inspires me more. 🙂
I know what you mean. I agree. Certain people living certain lives that I wish for, and their way of life motivates me.
I like your signature, too.
Nature. But mainly it is to find a place that feels like home, where I feel comfortable around others, and where people can understand me.
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