Ways to hide.

[Chrysta]

What are some ways that you hide from people or hide your side effects?



I used to always sit in the dark.

I love to read but I couldn't read in the dark so I got a book light. It put off just enough light so I could see what I was reading but so no one could see me.

I got a pale foundation that I put on when I go out sometimes. It actually matches my complextion very well but when put on my whole face makes me look very pale. But I don't mind... I like being pale.

I would say I wasn't hungry so I didn't have to go and eat with everyone. Or I would say I wanted to watch something on tv so I could go eat in my own room.

Sometimes I would pretend to be alseep so I didn't have to be with people.

I am sure I have others but I can't think of more right this second.

 

[Faded]

Sometimes I would pretend to be alseep so I didn't have to be with people..

Thats what i do most of the time, I Also fake a cough or a Sick-face, As long as im faking im aint leaving! Its just like lieing, a white lie! :lol:

 

[Warlock]

I'm about to go to bed and my family is getting up soon.

 

[corsa]

This is what i do when i know i will be facing a potential 'blush' moment:

* Apply foundation

* Wear shirts or clothing that covers my chest.

* Have a bottle of water with me, to cool me down (plus it's a good distraction and opportunity to calm yourself down)

* When i'm sitting down, sometimes i prop my head in one of my hands so it covers some of my face. I'm trying to 'appear' casual.

I must admit i had a good day talking with one of my bosses today. It was one on one in her office and i didn't blush at all, in fact i almost enjoyed myself. Before seeing her i had the usual 'oh my god i'm gonna blush thoughts' and then i started thinking: fuck it, i might as well welcome it. Since i'm a bit of a perfectionist, i thought, why not make a 'perfect' performance out of my blushing? Why should it be any different from any other project i take on?

So in my head i started to welcome it. Kinda like 'hello old friend, how the hell are ya?", and then i started to concentrate hard on consciously forcing myself to make the most perfect blotchiest, reddest blush i could make .....And i couldn't do it. I went into that meeting and i didn't even have one red blotch on my chest. I can't vouch for all occasions, but today it seemed like i couldn't force myself to blush. hmm something to think about maybe?

 

[shipost]

I remembered when I knew somone was coming round so I deliberatly went into the bath and let my mum handle it :lol:

oh and I was desperate to reply to this and I ran out of posts so what I did was go back and delete one of my others lol

 

[2QuietForThem]

When I know that I have to sit alone in public for awhile, I'll bring a newspaper or magazine with me. I keep my head down while reading, and I've been told that it usually keeps people away because they don't want to disturb. Cool!

 

[Moonie]

If my neighbor from upstairs calls me, I usually don't pick it up. I will pretend I had my phone on silent or it was not working. Also, if he invites me to his dinner things, I will take a nap and conveniently miss it.

 

[Septor]

The Bathroom.That's what I did a lot,especially when I was younger.If I knew I had to wait for the bus or had a doctor appointment I would hide in a bathroom stall until right before I had to do whatever it was I had gone out in public to do.It seems I spent a lot of time in the bath room stall.:?

 

[Chrysta]

oh and I was desperate to reply to this and I ran out of posts so what I did was go back and delete one of my others lol

Glad that you like the subject that much. :wink:

I am also a fan of resting my face in my hands to hide my face. And just pretending like a didn't hear the door. My mom and sister had to go to the the doctor's today and I was left home to answer the door cause my mom was expecting something. So when I heard the doorbell I jumped out of bed to hurry and get it over with and didn't realize that my mom was home and answered the door. I was like... thank god I didn't have to do that. I know I could have done it I just didn't want to.

I remember on New Years my aunt, unlce, and cousin came over and I pretended to be sick so I didn't have to be with them. Not only cause of my anxiety but because I don't get along with them. Ugh most of the time realitives are just a pain in the ass. :evil:

 

[shipost]

I close my eyes alot lately, my eyes water so much when I am out I just find it easier to keep them shut :lol:

 

[corsa]

I use this sort of green moisturiser that calms the skin down and wear it underneath foundation, it doesn't completely cover the redness but it makes me blush less.

What is green moisturiser? and where do you get it?

 

[missquiet]

pretend i'm really sick..when actually i can't recall being sick in years.

 

[Jack-B]

Great posts!

Hiding is part and parcel of phobia.

I ask myself this question:

If everyone could read my thoughts and they know exactly how i feel, then whats the point in hiding?

answer:

They cant, so there is nothing to hide. I try to hide my external reaction ( blushing, sweating, shaking, stuttering, etc.) because i feel they know i am anxious internally. They cant see when my thoughts are anxious so there is nothing to hide.

Its only wanting to hide the reaction of these thoughts that causes 95% of the anxiety, this then induces the external reaction shakes, blushing, sweating etc. I then avoid all human contact for fear of them 'knowing' what i am really feeling or 'what i am really like'. by using avoidance techniques like (running away, looking busy, listening to my walkman, reading a paper, pretend to be asleep, i cant make it im going out somewhere else, texting, etc)

Jack