babyblue
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Hello 
I'm Jade age 18 and I'm new here. I was reading loads of the forum stuff and a lot of its very relatable but I can't find much about vanity and being housebound.
Basically I am too vain. My fear is.. looking ugly infront of people, even my best friends have hardly ever seen me without make up. I wont go out without it on. And even if I only have one tiny spot I see it as a huge deal and I cannot go out. I've been like this for about two years and its gotten worse slowly and now I rarely leave the house. I've put on about a stone really quickly and I got stretch marks on my thighs and I feel horrible. People tell me that I'm pretty.. and it doesnt make a difference because its how I feel. I keep thinking of the stretch marks etc...
The thing is I am not really a shallow person.. I think I'm really accepting of other people but when it comes to myself it's completely different. I think a lot but generally I'm a happy person but I'm so frustrated because there are so many things I want to do but I can't do them because I can't go out, I can't make myself. Somedays I can and if I don't feel up to it, NOTHING will make me go out. I'm not even shy, I can tell people all about this but I'm still so vain and I prefer it that way. Boohoo
I've had therapists but it doesnt make a difference I guess Im here cause Id like to talk to people who can accept this/understand. It just seemed to have happened out of the blue and theres no point exactly that I can pinpoint it happening but in big social settings/school I've always been the outsider/outcast. But with people making remarks I used to give as good as I got it didnt bother me, a couple of years ago I was quite confident, I was loud, and my friends said a lot of fun to be around, then I just stopped.. like all of a sudden it all got to me?!? I do not understand that but oh well?
Talk people XxX
I'm Jade age 18 and I'm new here. I was reading loads of the forum stuff and a lot of its very relatable but I can't find much about vanity and being housebound.
Basically I am too vain. My fear is.. looking ugly infront of people, even my best friends have hardly ever seen me without make up. I wont go out without it on. And even if I only have one tiny spot I see it as a huge deal and I cannot go out. I've been like this for about two years and its gotten worse slowly and now I rarely leave the house. I've put on about a stone really quickly and I got stretch marks on my thighs and I feel horrible. People tell me that I'm pretty.. and it doesnt make a difference because its how I feel. I keep thinking of the stretch marks etc...
The thing is I am not really a shallow person.. I think I'm really accepting of other people but when it comes to myself it's completely different. I think a lot but generally I'm a happy person but I'm so frustrated because there are so many things I want to do but I can't do them because I can't go out, I can't make myself. Somedays I can and if I don't feel up to it, NOTHING will make me go out. I'm not even shy, I can tell people all about this but I'm still so vain and I prefer it that way. Boohoo
I've had therapists but it doesnt make a difference I guess Im here cause Id like to talk to people who can accept this/understand. It just seemed to have happened out of the blue and theres no point exactly that I can pinpoint it happening but in big social settings/school I've always been the outsider/outcast. But with people making remarks I used to give as good as I got it didnt bother me, a couple of years ago I was quite confident, I was loud, and my friends said a lot of fun to be around, then I just stopped.. like all of a sudden it all got to me?!? I do not understand that but oh well?
Talk people XxX
