too much too soon???

[jojosparkles]

hiya everyone

Up until a few years ago i had always been really loud and lively and was never ever in the house..i had a hectic social life and did two jobs and before that also went to college so ya could say i burnt the candle at both ends.

Now though i will stay in for weeks at a time and will only go out for hospital or doc appointments. staying in is making me depressed though cos im even missing working.

6 months ago to overcome sa, although i didnt realise wat it was, i moved miles away from home and i think i thought that it would be a fresh start. however 6 weeks later i had to come back home cos i was that depressed i wouldnt get out of bed.

In 3 weeks i am starting a job part time in a pharmacy. im already really nervous and medication aint helpin! i will b dealin with the public so there is no way i can hide! i really dunno if i have got myself in to deep. Aswell as this i have been offered a room for free to offer beauty therapy treatments. i know this offer will not come again! i really dunno wat to do as last time i pushed myself i made myself worse! help anyone???

 

[r0ck0ut04]

Maybe the job at the pharmacy would be a good way to start getting over Sa. Get you out of the house, keeps you occupied. Most people going there are probably preoccupied in what there buying or themselves anyhow, and if for some reason things didnt work out its not the end of the world.

 

[kattness]

Well you said you wanted to get better.....and this is a chance to help yourself out.
Take one day at a time, try not to think about things that could happen. You made a great step into the world.

good luck !!

katyx

 

[MariahCarey]

yeah like rockout said, the customers would be too preoccupied in their own thing anyway, they're just there to buy their stuff and leave and its not asif u have to make conversation either, so dont worry.

also, i'd take that free beauty treatment offer if i were u, like u said it wont come again and its crucial we try n take as much offers as we can as SA can stop us from proceeding in life and doin the things we want simply because we're too scared!

dont worry hun, you're doin really well and i wish u all the best of luck in ur new job! xx

 

[jojosparkles]

aww thanks for the support. yeah ya prob right. been speakin to the doc and he thinks its a good idea, he even laughed and said u will realise how many ppl are worse off than u!!

All i can do is try i suppose! i hope i dont fail but if i dont try i will feel like a failure anyway!

love n sparkles joanna xxxx