too anxious to buy a gun

[thelostworld]

I have been thinking a lot lately and I have decided that I will probably kill myself. I am 19, so I'm old enough to buy a gun, but I'm too fucking anxious to actually go in and buy it. What if they do some sort of backround check and some how my parents find out or something..and also, I'm sure they'll think I'm nuts because of how I act and look in social situations..it's so bad I can't even go buy a gun to kill myself :lol:

 

[zyxockjm]

don't think in that direction....at best u could run away from everything and move to a place where no one knows ur past. can u tell us a bit of what's bothering u? maybe we could help u out w/other suggestions. i'll tell u i got myself into deeeeeep shit because of s.p. but somehow i still liv w/it.

 

[lawyerguy]

yeah dude,

Don't think about killing yourself. Tell us more about your situation and maybe we can give you advice. There's always more people to help you out in whatever situation you're in.

 

[socialboy]

hahaha, I found the title and the post funny.

But the other two replies confused me. Are you really suicidal at the moment?

Just as my name 'social boy' acually describes someone quite the opposite, hehehe

 

[GettingThere]

Hey thelostworld,
Speaking from experience I can tell you that it does get easier as you grow older (thats the case for me anyway) but nvertheless, I know that its hard work this thing (SP) and being as young as you are you long for the things that others have.

Still, if you take the time to think things through I am sure that you would come to realise that you do have a lot thats right in your life. I wonder if you would swap your life (complete with SP) for the life of a paraplegic without SP?

 

[introvert]

Don't do it..! Think of all the things you might miss out on, stuff you probably can't imagine ever doing.

 

[Travis88]

I bet we all thought about suicide at one time or another, but we arent insane i bet hes just playin with words. :wink:

 

[thelostworld]

well to clear one thing up, i am in fact a girl. i didn't really intend for this post to be a cry for help, i don't need to hear the same old shit about life getting better. thanks for your sincerity thought, i guess i shouldn't have expected people to say 'go for it'. thanks anyway

 

[Travis88]

Sorry about that

 

[zyxockjm]

No you're right....i don't see how sp can get any better either, i've had this for a very long time now (i'm almost 23) and i dont really see any end in site. But still suicide isn't the answer. People suffer due to their limits and live. How exactly is sp messing you up now? Is it a job thing or a relationship issue or something else?

 

[InMyTree]

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[Hellraising]

How come you talk about suicide and botox at the same time?

 

[thelostworld]

because i'm considering both

 

[Atari]

Why does a 19 year old need botox? You should be getting implants.