Elenaya
Member
Hello there. Please allow me to introduce myself.
My name is Elenaya and I'm 23 years old currently residing in Dallas, TX. I'm an artist and a creator of many things. I'm highly interested and in-tuned with things outside of the "norm" as well as animals. I'm also extremely friendly and an overall happy person that can be seen with a smile. I can be random at times but deeply nice as well. I'm also pretty intelligent and I am a deeply logical person who loves to develop her own theorys as well.
As for why I'm here-- I've been dealing with Social Anxiety as well as several others problems for years. I grew up in an abusive situation that lasted for 20 years. I'm only 23 now, so it hasn't been that long since my abuse stopped. I'm also a victim of sexual assault and I believe accounting from all that I have developed multiple problems in my present lifetime.
I've grown a bit accustom to this world over a bit of time. I wasn't allowed social contact until I was far into my teens, so I had to teach myself means of communication. I used to suffer from panic attacks and horridness nightmares every night, but since I moved away from my abusive family I don't as much anymore. My panic attacks have eased down to nothing.
In the past I was very avoidant of everything. I didn't speak unless directed to and spent most of my time locked up into my room. Because of my social restrictions from the world for the several years, I didn't have a clue how to speak nor even say Hello to someone. I had to spend time learning how the other people spoke and reacted to situations. There's more, but I don't wish to make this obnoxiously long. I'll just take myself into the present day instead.
Here is a brief summery of some of my problems. It's not all of them, but it's the bases I suppose. I'm overly afraid of change and trying out anything new. I also suffer from high perfectionism, obsessive compulsiveness, anxiety, uncontrollable crying from the smallest stressful situations, fear of sex, extreme depression leading to a suicide note, fear of communicating, fear of interacting with others, mild fear of eye contact, fear of messing up (which would be included in the perfectionism note), still lacking means of communication (i.e. not understanding how to respond directly still).
But overall that's some of me anyhow. =) Drop me a hey through PM if you want to have another SA friend.
My name is Elenaya and I'm 23 years old currently residing in Dallas, TX. I'm an artist and a creator of many things. I'm highly interested and in-tuned with things outside of the "norm" as well as animals. I'm also extremely friendly and an overall happy person that can be seen with a smile. I can be random at times but deeply nice as well. I'm also pretty intelligent and I am a deeply logical person who loves to develop her own theorys as well.
As for why I'm here-- I've been dealing with Social Anxiety as well as several others problems for years. I grew up in an abusive situation that lasted for 20 years. I'm only 23 now, so it hasn't been that long since my abuse stopped. I'm also a victim of sexual assault and I believe accounting from all that I have developed multiple problems in my present lifetime.
I've grown a bit accustom to this world over a bit of time. I wasn't allowed social contact until I was far into my teens, so I had to teach myself means of communication. I used to suffer from panic attacks and horridness nightmares every night, but since I moved away from my abusive family I don't as much anymore. My panic attacks have eased down to nothing.
In the past I was very avoidant of everything. I didn't speak unless directed to and spent most of my time locked up into my room. Because of my social restrictions from the world for the several years, I didn't have a clue how to speak nor even say Hello to someone. I had to spend time learning how the other people spoke and reacted to situations. There's more, but I don't wish to make this obnoxiously long. I'll just take myself into the present day instead.
Here is a brief summery of some of my problems. It's not all of them, but it's the bases I suppose. I'm overly afraid of change and trying out anything new. I also suffer from high perfectionism, obsessive compulsiveness, anxiety, uncontrollable crying from the smallest stressful situations, fear of sex, extreme depression leading to a suicide note, fear of communicating, fear of interacting with others, mild fear of eye contact, fear of messing up (which would be included in the perfectionism note), still lacking means of communication (i.e. not understanding how to respond directly still).
But overall that's some of me anyhow. =) Drop me a hey through PM if you want to have another SA friend.
