this place seems...safe

[deathly]

hi all. o wow, i cant believe theres a SA community...why have i not known about this! i guess my story is that i've had this SA for as long as i can remember, though its kind of a self-diagnosis and i only recently discovered this monster actually has a name. dont know what else to say, not really ready to open up yet, im just still kind of shocked at my good fortune to stumble onto this place. in everything ive read here, everyone seems so brutally honest about their SA, their fears and everything, its...um, uplifting! i think ill go lurk the forums for a bit longer...

 

[nimrodel]

hi all. o wow, i cant believe theres a SA community...why have i not known about this! i guess my story is that i've had this SA for as long as i can remember, though its kind of a self-diagnosis and i only recently discovered this monster actually has a name. dont know what else to say, not really ready to open up yet, im just still kind of shocked at my good fortune to stumble onto this place. in everything ive read here, everyone seems so brutally honest about their SA, their fears and everything, its...um, uplifting! i think ill go lurk the forums for a bit longer...

haha, that was my exact reaction too! I was like, "woah - everyone's so upfront about all this, and there's so many!" It really helps you accept it. I think you'll find everyone here really nice and always willing to help.

 

[random]

I am relatively new here and I do recall feeling the same way. I had only spoken to someone else with SA once before finding this site and it was a huge relief to see this 'crowd' here - all talking openly. Felt nice. Welcome!

 

[shy_guy]

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[shy_girl]

bye

 

[random]

Oh all my life I thought I was 'shy'. WHich didn't explain why I could ham it up with my friends. In college I was so intimidated by the wonderful man I was attracted to - I left class 2 minutes before everyone else and walked calmly to the stairwell. Once out of sight of people - I sprinted down 3 floors of the cement stairwell on high heel boots and a heavy back pack like a decathalon competitor. I mean, people, I almost fell down flights of stairs or at least broke an ankle to get away from someone I WAS ATTRACTED TO. I don't have long legs like some of the men but my desparate flight down the stairs sometimes caused me to take the stairs two at a time or just slide off the step I was on. It was very scarey. Once out of breath and frightened by almost falling down the stairs and frightened at the thought of having him catch up to me- I would leave the lower stairwell the very picture of calm, cool and collected so that no one would note my odd behavior. Breathing hard through clenched teeth so I didn't look winded - I just wonder what I REALLY looked like....whites of my eyes showing and my hair blowing around my face on its own because I was trying to conceal the fact that I RAN down the stairs. All to make sure I didn't HAVE to speak to some man I thougth was adorable. And I thought THIS behavior meant that I was 'shy'.

 

[TAMPA-BAY]

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Like randon said I was labeled shy and thought I was shy but It never made any sense cause it was never random shyness.

It was like I would run into some kind of invisable wall. I found this site by pure luck on google. It 's like a different world that only we know about.

 

[dancingpurplecat]

I feel the same way, I've always known and recognized my symptoms with myself, then I abesent-mindedly typed "social phobia" into google about a week ago, and I found a list of the symptoms (mainly the cognitive) that I'd had for a long time. Not to mention the number of people here saying things that I'd complain about to my family, which would give them and me the idea that there's something wrong with me, and now it has a name.

I did the same thing.

 

[joshueg]

Hello, Deadly, as you can see, you' re not alone at all!! hehe.
Take care!! :wink: