Therapy

[Someoneinneed]

I just started going to therapy two weeks ago because I thought it would help, but I actually feel even more stressed out than I was before. Every time I have an appointment, I have to call for a ride (because I don't drive) and I hate making phone calls. I don't know how to talk to people or what to say and my mind just goes blank, so I just avoid making calls all-together.

I had an appointment this morning and I missed it. I suffer from fatigue and insomnia, so I can't sleep at night and I feel like absolute crap the entire day, if I don't get more than 10 hours of sleep. Last night, I got 4 hours and I could barely get out of bed. I didn't call to cancel the appointment, I haven't called to apologize, and I'm just sitting here feeling incredibly embarrassed and ashamed and I don't know what to do!

I know he will understand, but I'm still extremely uncomfortable..

 

[Earthcircle]

I've had over a decade of therapy, and lots of bad experiences with it. In fact, some of my experiences have been so bad that people express scepticism as to whether I'm telling the truth, so I often tend to clam up about it. In any case, I would just stay away from therapy, but that's me. I know that others will say I'm terribly wrong. Meds were horrible; they actually cause mental illness, which is really scary. So what do I do now about my lifelong problems?