asubscriber99
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It was Saturday, i came home at 11 p.m. it was an important day, because the next day i was going to usa embassy.
I started preparing my stuff; the documents, the dress, the shoes,.....
soon it was 3:30 a.m. "oh, my god!" i should be awake by 6:00 a.m.
A couple of hours later, my cell phone starts ringing, i wake up, prepare myself, and leave to embassy.
At the embassy, social phobia starts rolling, and my heart start beating, and beating, and beat.......
every time i try to calm down, it won't work. "Your whole life is depending on this" my mind kept thinking.
An hour later, i'm called for the interview, my heart is in rush, and my mind is trying to be in pace with him, and i'm in middle of the two.
"What is the purpose of your visit?" the officer asked. "study, I wanna attend...." and i start making all types of mistakes, grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes, conjugation mistakes, and mistakes i've never even heard of. maybe i should name it after myself!
The interview ends, i get the "we're processing your documents" paper, and i feel depressed, "why did i mess up?", and social phobia comes to front again.
I come back home, sleep for 3 hours, wake up, then listen to "Lose Your Self" again and again, along with falshbacks of what happened, and end up in one decision, "from now on, my life will go the way i want, not the other way around, whatever cost it takes"
I started preparing my stuff; the documents, the dress, the shoes,.....
soon it was 3:30 a.m. "oh, my god!" i should be awake by 6:00 a.m.
A couple of hours later, my cell phone starts ringing, i wake up, prepare myself, and leave to embassy.
At the embassy, social phobia starts rolling, and my heart start beating, and beating, and beat.......
every time i try to calm down, it won't work. "Your whole life is depending on this" my mind kept thinking.
An hour later, i'm called for the interview, my heart is in rush, and my mind is trying to be in pace with him, and i'm in middle of the two.
"What is the purpose of your visit?" the officer asked. "study, I wanna attend...." and i start making all types of mistakes, grammar mistakes, spelling mistakes, conjugation mistakes, and mistakes i've never even heard of. maybe i should name it after myself!
The interview ends, i get the "we're processing your documents" paper, and i feel depressed, "why did i mess up?", and social phobia comes to front again.
I come back home, sleep for 3 hours, wake up, then listen to "Lose Your Self" again and again, along with falshbacks of what happened, and end up in one decision, "from now on, my life will go the way i want, not the other way around, whatever cost it takes"