anomicdeer
Well-known member
This is just something I wrote because I felt like writing something. I'm exactly trying to get my mind off of it by writing about it, but I did anyways.
I just want to save it here. I could just delete it. But... I don't know
It makes like easier
better.
Sometimes it could ruin a life.
Not the pedofile or serial killer way.
I fell for him.
Then I fell for him harder.
I already didn't feel good about myself.
My life.
But I wanted more.
I wanted to feel better.
I wanted someone
It's an addiction.
I couldn't leave it.
I told myself,
it won't happen again.
But it did.
Of course.
I can't ever leave it alone.
I can't ever left it go.
I get worst everytime.
I need him.
I want him.
I hate myself.
I don't derserve him.
I will never meet him anyways.
I will never get to feel,
see,
hear,
him.
If I didn't have this thing...
where would I be now.
How would I feel?
I just want to save it here. I could just delete it. But... I don't know
It makes like easier
better.
Sometimes it could ruin a life.
Not the pedofile or serial killer way.
I fell for him.
Then I fell for him harder.
I already didn't feel good about myself.
My life.
But I wanted more.
I wanted to feel better.
I wanted someone
It's an addiction.
I couldn't leave it.
I told myself,
it won't happen again.
But it did.
Of course.
I can't ever leave it alone.
I can't ever left it go.
I get worst everytime.
I need him.
I want him.
I hate myself.
I don't derserve him.
I will never meet him anyways.
I will never get to feel,
see,
hear,
him.
If I didn't have this thing...
where would I be now.
How would I feel?