Laima4254
Member
Hello everyone. I might be not so good in English... well, I hope you'll understand me
As some of you already said, there is a problem with being around teachers or cute guys. It drives me crazy! I always liked older people <45. And now all of my teachers are males! It doesn't mean I like them all, but some of them make me get red. And I can't look into their eyes. The most awful thing is what they may think :? Sometimes it even makes me think that I like them, but I really don't. Also last time my classmate (he's cute) sat right next to me, face to face 8O (don't even want to remember) and asked why I'm so quiet and other stuff... Sure I turned red. I don't know what's happening to me, but I have panic attacs when I see that handsome builder at school that stares at me, or that young teacher who always makes fun of me, or the guy I really like... I don't even want him to come close, because I don't want to be embarrassed with shaky hands, red face, trembling body muscles and stuff like that. When all this combined with any sexual conversation my neck and head get so tight, that it starts shaking and then I feel like I'm not alive. I start avoid people that may like or love me
I put make-up on my cheeksand nose. It helps to hide redness on 50% I think :roll: There are lots of things I would like to share, just because I don't have anybody to tell this.
As some of you already said, there is a problem with being around teachers or cute guys. It drives me crazy! I always liked older people <45. And now all of my teachers are males! It doesn't mean I like them all, but some of them make me get red. And I can't look into their eyes. The most awful thing is what they may think :? Sometimes it even makes me think that I like them, but I really don't. Also last time my classmate (he's cute) sat right next to me, face to face 8O (don't even want to remember) and asked why I'm so quiet and other stuff... Sure I turned red. I don't know what's happening to me, but I have panic attacs when I see that handsome builder at school that stares at me, or that young teacher who always makes fun of me, or the guy I really like... I don't even want him to come close, because I don't want to be embarrassed with shaky hands, red face, trembling body muscles and stuff like that. When all this combined with any sexual conversation my neck and head get so tight, that it starts shaking and then I feel like I'm not alive. I start avoid people that may like or love me
I put make-up on my cheeksand nose. It helps to hide redness on 50% I think :roll: There are lots of things I would like to share, just because I don't have anybody to tell this.