Struggling...

[spirited7]

Hi all,

i have come here just to vent a little.. Right now im struggling with my anxiety.. I had to move in with my mum back in October due to my former partner ending our relationship (due to my anxiety). I really dont like it here.. I cant afford to live away from home as i am a full-time uni student, and my SA stops me from being able to talk to people. I really miss being in a relationship with my former partner, whom i am still friends with. He said that he just wanted to see me manage my anxiety and to make a couple of friends i can go out with every now and then when he wants to chill with his mates. I have always been a shy and introverted person so meeting people is already hard for me. I fear that in the time that i am sorting out my SA he will move on. But then again i feel like i just shouldnt be with him if given the chance because i dont want to complicate his life. SA can be so crippling and exhausting at times and no matter how many times i try to explain this to him, he can never understand what its like. I would give anything to be free of SA and live a happy and carefree life.

 

[Sacrament]

Focus on what you need to be better, and on working on those things. Don't do it for him, do it for yourself. And only get in a relationship with him again if he's able to be reliable, instead of breaking up with you over who you are (at a particular point in time).