theslowesthand
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Another of my analytical-type threads... 
Woke up today, and was noticeably quite hyper/irritable right-off-the-bat. I had my 8 hours sleep. Nothing else much has been happening. So there SEEMS to be no rhyme-nor-reason for this major surge in irritability/aggression. Am somewhat calmer now, but i still want to write this thread about it, for therapeutic & learning purposes.
I will start by listing what i know/do about these types of situations:
• Up till about an hour/so ago, i was feeling "irritable as f*ck" (the diagnosis or problem). Since arose this morning, i was rushing/impatient/aggressive at everything. Eventually got to a point where i was wanting to go CRAZY-AAAARRRRGH!!!!! (had an "attack of the crazies")
• Ideally, one would want to prevent such occurrences (emotional states)
• Once i became AWARE, as well as WILLING to do sth about it, i referred to a document i have entitled (naturally) "Irritable as f*ck", within which has my various notes/ideas on what to do in such scenarios
• First thing i did was to take some of my meds that i'd been skipping (& use my RescueRemedy spray).
Next (now late at night) I put on some loud, aggressive music (which goes quite well with my stressed state). Played 2 albums (2nd just finished now)
(also ate a couple of Giant choc-chip cookies, which document said to do)
• So that's the cure (prevention was a "write-off" - i did'not prevent it at all)
• Now, am back to prevention again (to prevent the next time). And i think some analysis/work is needed here (as preferably i would want to prevent such bad days in the first place). The analysis is below.
Analysis...
Here is what i think is the order or phases of irritability:
Need soothing ---+ Need calming ---+ Need pacifying ---+ Need sedating
. . or
Need soothing ---+ Need major soothing ---+ Need calming ---+ Need pacifying ---+ Need sedating
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
. . . . . (eg frantic needing soothing, f*ck I need some f*cking soothing)
And due to trying to googling some related stuff, i found this gem: Flip the Switch to Rational Thinking - NPEX
For the first time ever, i think, i have found something that explains exactly what this emotional phenomenom is. According to it, my "threat alarm bell" was going off. I was reacting emotionally/irrationally, instead of my usual logically/rationally. Some good stuff in there. But the big question is, whether i would be able to follow the steps mentioned in the situation i am in. The best best for sure (aside from total prevention of course), would be to try to "nip it in the bud". That is, to try and apply these (& other) methods right when you first notice them - which for me today would have been basically when i awoke. My overall "mood" for the day was that of "irritability", so couldn't change that (although MIGHT have been able to prevent it??). So would i have to like "drop everything" and focus on my true emotional needs - ie to follow some of the steps in that webpage ... for the whole day? Or maybe after an hour/so would i have overcome the problem? I doubt it, as i said, my "day's overall mood" was that of irritability (it's like a chemical/physiological thing, kind of like having your period i expect). Maybe these steps can reduce the symptoms?. They look quite promising, but maybe just for a mentally/environmentally-induced stressed state - not for a chemically/physiological/biorythms/etc induced state?.
I guess i'll have to try these things out next time and see.
Action
So, that's some analysis done. Now, it's time to put that analysis (involving prevention of future episodes) into action. I'll have to try to somehow incorporate all of that stuff in the webpage (i'm very confident in it!) into my way of dealing with things. It has actually made me aware of some things that happen to me on a more-or-less daily basis, but which i usually never think about. Such as my bodily responses, my subtle-but-sudden drops in mood, my beliefs, values and rules for living, my thinking about situations - in fact it's probably EVERYTHING except my current feelings, that i am thinking about!. So there's much work to do here!
.
Woke up today, and was noticeably quite hyper/irritable right-off-the-bat. I had my 8 hours sleep. Nothing else much has been happening. So there SEEMS to be no rhyme-nor-reason for this major surge in irritability/aggression. Am somewhat calmer now, but i still want to write this thread about it, for therapeutic & learning purposes.
I will start by listing what i know/do about these types of situations:
• Up till about an hour/so ago, i was feeling "irritable as f*ck" (the diagnosis or problem). Since arose this morning, i was rushing/impatient/aggressive at everything. Eventually got to a point where i was wanting to go CRAZY-AAAARRRRGH!!!!! (had an "attack of the crazies")
• Ideally, one would want to prevent such occurrences (emotional states)
• Once i became AWARE, as well as WILLING to do sth about it, i referred to a document i have entitled (naturally) "Irritable as f*ck", within which has my various notes/ideas on what to do in such scenarios
• First thing i did was to take some of my meds that i'd been skipping (& use my RescueRemedy spray).
Next (now late at night) I put on some loud, aggressive music (which goes quite well with my stressed state). Played 2 albums (2nd just finished now)
(also ate a couple of Giant choc-chip cookies, which document said to do)
• So that's the cure (prevention was a "write-off" - i did'not prevent it at all)
• Now, am back to prevention again (to prevent the next time). And i think some analysis/work is needed here (as preferably i would want to prevent such bad days in the first place). The analysis is below.
Analysis...
Here is what i think is the order or phases of irritability:
Need soothing ---+ Need calming ---+ Need pacifying ---+ Need sedating
. . or
Need soothing ---+ Need major soothing ---+ Need calming ---+ Need pacifying ---+ Need sedating
. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . |
. . . . . (eg frantic needing soothing, f*ck I need some f*cking soothing)
And due to trying to googling some related stuff, i found this gem: Flip the Switch to Rational Thinking - NPEX
For the first time ever, i think, i have found something that explains exactly what this emotional phenomenom is. According to it, my "threat alarm bell" was going off. I was reacting emotionally/irrationally, instead of my usual logically/rationally. Some good stuff in there. But the big question is, whether i would be able to follow the steps mentioned in the situation i am in. The best best for sure (aside from total prevention of course), would be to try to "nip it in the bud". That is, to try and apply these (& other) methods right when you first notice them - which for me today would have been basically when i awoke. My overall "mood" for the day was that of "irritability", so couldn't change that (although MIGHT have been able to prevent it??). So would i have to like "drop everything" and focus on my true emotional needs - ie to follow some of the steps in that webpage ... for the whole day? Or maybe after an hour/so would i have overcome the problem? I doubt it, as i said, my "day's overall mood" was that of irritability (it's like a chemical/physiological thing, kind of like having your period i expect). Maybe these steps can reduce the symptoms?. They look quite promising, but maybe just for a mentally/environmentally-induced stressed state - not for a chemically/physiological/biorythms/etc induced state?.
I guess i'll have to try these things out next time and see.
Action
So, that's some analysis done. Now, it's time to put that analysis (involving prevention of future episodes) into action. I'll have to try to somehow incorporate all of that stuff in the webpage (i'm very confident in it!) into my way of dealing with things. It has actually made me aware of some things that happen to me on a more-or-less daily basis, but which i usually never think about. Such as my bodily responses, my subtle-but-sudden drops in mood, my beliefs, values and rules for living, my thinking about situations - in fact it's probably EVERYTHING except my current feelings, that i am thinking about!. So there's much work to do here!
.