Zarrix
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Blog entry incoming...
The First Tree.
A new era has dawned. We have all 'recognized' the dangers of Global Warming and we, humanity are in hysteria. In my mind, I felt a similar recognition when I discovered SA. Apparently, humanity must become eco-friendly to avert a global disaster. Apparently, I must seek help to prevent a psychological catastrophe. However, collectively we do little to prevent the warming distaster. We, as individuals feel we can't alone save this earth. I feel I can't do anything to prevent anything this monster from devouring my mind. Like Global Warming, we hope that it simply doesn't exist.
There is some, niggling optimistic thought that SA doesn't even exist. It is simply a matter of jumping in the deep end. Theres a case for putting yourself under immense bombardment from the get go. I don't buy into that idea. You gotta handle a punch before you can resist a blitzkrieg. We aren't immediately becoming 100% environmentally friendly because of the hysterical aspects of global warming. Change should be progressive, not explosive. Such barbarianism will sink just about any warship.
I feel that something must be done, but I am in no state to even push it. Ambition quickly becomes forgotten in the heat of the moment. Stuck in a load of superglue, awaiting the roller to crush my existence. Previously in life, I was guarded from this impending force from the sanctuary of my family home. With a new era dawning, a self dependent one, will I be happier or more dissapointed. Eventually, I will become sick of my soul, I will want other people in my life. I feel unless something is done, I could not do that, no matter how powerful my ambitions are deep down. I will be stuck in the superglue, surrounded by a cycle of gloom.
Then again, it could simply be a personality trait. Many people simply claim this with great naivety. If this was a persona, I would be contempt with living the life of a hermit, and I sure as hell wouldn't be writing this. Every working day is painful because I can't form the relationships I so desperately need. I can't even release some of these inner demons onto unsuspecting people, they have got their own networks, they don't even give a rats arse about my 'problems'.
Back to the scaled comparison to global warming. Like much of the world, my mind is waiting for the impending doom. The thought of "One person can't make a difference' applies here. I can't just throw myself into social situations, I can't just express full and true emotion. Im sure the rest of the world doesn't give a damn anyways. Why plant that one tree? It isn't going to have an effect if 1 billion other people think exactly the same thing. A trickier question is whether both monsters eventually come to full vigor as imagined... Soon enough, soon enough...
Theres always a nagging thought that my SA doesn't even exist, but the thought that it does always over rides it. At least this means it can be solved.
The First Tree.
A new era has dawned. We have all 'recognized' the dangers of Global Warming and we, humanity are in hysteria. In my mind, I felt a similar recognition when I discovered SA. Apparently, humanity must become eco-friendly to avert a global disaster. Apparently, I must seek help to prevent a psychological catastrophe. However, collectively we do little to prevent the warming distaster. We, as individuals feel we can't alone save this earth. I feel I can't do anything to prevent anything this monster from devouring my mind. Like Global Warming, we hope that it simply doesn't exist.
There is some, niggling optimistic thought that SA doesn't even exist. It is simply a matter of jumping in the deep end. Theres a case for putting yourself under immense bombardment from the get go. I don't buy into that idea. You gotta handle a punch before you can resist a blitzkrieg. We aren't immediately becoming 100% environmentally friendly because of the hysterical aspects of global warming. Change should be progressive, not explosive. Such barbarianism will sink just about any warship.
I feel that something must be done, but I am in no state to even push it. Ambition quickly becomes forgotten in the heat of the moment. Stuck in a load of superglue, awaiting the roller to crush my existence. Previously in life, I was guarded from this impending force from the sanctuary of my family home. With a new era dawning, a self dependent one, will I be happier or more dissapointed. Eventually, I will become sick of my soul, I will want other people in my life. I feel unless something is done, I could not do that, no matter how powerful my ambitions are deep down. I will be stuck in the superglue, surrounded by a cycle of gloom.
Then again, it could simply be a personality trait. Many people simply claim this with great naivety. If this was a persona, I would be contempt with living the life of a hermit, and I sure as hell wouldn't be writing this. Every working day is painful because I can't form the relationships I so desperately need. I can't even release some of these inner demons onto unsuspecting people, they have got their own networks, they don't even give a rats arse about my 'problems'.
Back to the scaled comparison to global warming. Like much of the world, my mind is waiting for the impending doom. The thought of "One person can't make a difference' applies here. I can't just throw myself into social situations, I can't just express full and true emotion. Im sure the rest of the world doesn't give a damn anyways. Why plant that one tree? It isn't going to have an effect if 1 billion other people think exactly the same thing. A trickier question is whether both monsters eventually come to full vigor as imagined... Soon enough, soon enough...
Theres always a nagging thought that my SA doesn't even exist, but the thought that it does always over rides it. At least this means it can be solved.