ikemikes15
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Whenever I go into a social situation I get uncomfortable because when I talk I get these awkward faces. Even when I talk to some of my closest friends I feel that my face shows an awkward expression and I know that my friend notices it and it makes them uncomfortable. I've always been kind of shy but it seems like over the past year it has got worst. I just want to be able to talk and have a good time like everybody else. Even sometimes when something is funny I may not laugh because I'll think I'm awkward. Because of this I do not do alot of things I want to do. I dont trust myself in social situation because I feel that I will just look awkward and feel uncomfortable. Im on zoloft but that doesn't seem like it's really helping. My parents tell me that its just tricks that my mind try's to play on me. Im hearing all kinds of stories of people dealing with anxiety and depression for so many years seeing psychiatrist and taking medication and I don’t think I would be able to live like that because I really want to be somebody in life. Im 18 years old and feel that I have a great life to live but can’t because I don’t have enough brainpower, don’t get me wrong Im a very intelligent person but this obstacle that I’m dealing with seems too tough so Im considering some type of psychosurgery besides lobotomy. Would electroconvulsive therapy work.