Moonie
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Well, I think my drinking escapades finally took me to an extreme. On Thursday, my creative writing class had to meet at a cafe and read a scene from our stories. A guy from my class asked if I wanted to go to the bar beforehand and have a couple drinks. I have drank before class on other occasions, so thought all would go okay. Well, I didn't have dinner that night and drank some coke/vodka before going to the bar. I wanted something to relax me for our walk there. Well, when at the bar I had a beer and long island iced tea.
I was okay when we showed up to the class- heard one person read their story and don't remember the rest of the class. I think we may (well me) have been kicked out. I remember waiting for our ride with the guy outside the cafe. Then when I got back to my on campus apartment I went upstairs to see if this guy that I am sort of friends with was there. He was working, but his roommates were there and some of his friends. I don't know them too well, but have hung out with them a couple times. Well, I was a total mess and falling like crazy. One of the guys had to call my boyfriend to come get me. Then I acted a fool in my apartment, bumped into a fire extinguisher and now have a big cut on my forehead area. So now I am embarrassed to show my face around my apartment building or around my own roommates.
For now I am saying that I am not going to drink again, or at least for the next whole month. But a part of me knows that I won't make it. There are times when I can drink a bit, get a nice buzz, but nothing out of control. But then, I will drink too much and make a total fool of myself. It's not fair. I probably need help, but am too shy to seek it.
I was okay when we showed up to the class- heard one person read their story and don't remember the rest of the class. I think we may (well me) have been kicked out. I remember waiting for our ride with the guy outside the cafe. Then when I got back to my on campus apartment I went upstairs to see if this guy that I am sort of friends with was there. He was working, but his roommates were there and some of his friends. I don't know them too well, but have hung out with them a couple times. Well, I was a total mess and falling like crazy. One of the guys had to call my boyfriend to come get me. Then I acted a fool in my apartment, bumped into a fire extinguisher and now have a big cut on my forehead area. So now I am embarrassed to show my face around my apartment building or around my own roommates.
For now I am saying that I am not going to drink again, or at least for the next whole month. But a part of me knows that I won't make it. There are times when I can drink a bit, get a nice buzz, but nothing out of control. But then, I will drink too much and make a total fool of myself. It's not fair. I probably need help, but am too shy to seek it.