4 months ago i was attacked. i was hit in the face with a drill. i had extensive damage to my face. my eye socket was shattered in 6 pieces, my cheekbone was broken in 3, the side of my nose was completely gone. the doc said that basically every bone in my face was broken. i had 4 metal plates put in my face and after the op i almost lost my eye due to swelling. since the i have been taking blackouts on about a twice a week basis. these start with a feelin of slight dizzines but not like room spinning or on a boat feeling, its more like what is meant to be up is down and vice versa. this will quickly get worse and a feeling of nausia usually follows. after about half an hour i find myself needing to lie down and feel paralised but still aware of any noise around me for a short while then i blackout and i am unaware of how long i am out for. havin spoken to my max fac surgeon i am aware this is a common problem in people with brain injuries which i will undoubtably have since the severity of my attack. i have also been told this may be something have to live with the rest of my life. despite this i feel i have to move on with my life. get used to the new person the damage has made me, i.e lower intellegence, change in personality, having to learn old things again like the smell of coffee of the taste of wine. my taste and sense of smell have been distorted but i see this as a blessing because it means i like things i never did before since everything is different now. i need to find the new me and be at one with myself. i guess all i am tryin to say is that life is for living dont let it pass you by. what has happened in the past is done, deal with it and move on. life is too short to get stuck in a moment, one day you will be lying on your death bed and what will you be thinking bout???? will it be that you have been there done it all and experienced the good and the bad and were proud of yourself??? or will it be that you hid from it and were wishing for another chance????
