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Out of interest, I've been researching on how clinical depression sets in and its effects, and realising that I've had pretty much every symptom listed for a long while now (over 2 years, perhaps even 4). I kept asking why nobody including myself noticed that something was wrong. Time for a (relatively :roll: ) short story.
Turns out I did wonder about it, extensively - I even misdiagnosed myself and went to the doctor for a checkup!
In late year 10 I had just moved up to the top English class, I remember telling myself I would give it all I had to achieve the best results in the subjects I chose to do, not only in the new classes I had moved into that year, but in the following years as well. The motivation and the commitment to do well was certainly there in those last few months of year 10, and it payed off as in that single term I had beaten everyone in the class in the final exams.
Those last few months were also the most traumatic, and without going into the details, were the beginnings of my depression. When the year ended and the holidays came, at first I was relaxed and was convinced that those shitty days had passed.
Returning to school the next year, the motivation was still there for a few months, and the marks showed that in the first quarter. But then, very suddenly, I started getting strange headaches, more like sensations - not painful, but feeling as if something sharp was being constantly shoved in the middle of my brain. It started to become nearly impossible to wake up in the morning and go to school fresh and attentive. My attention span dropped and my mind would always dart to some random thought or another. Worst of all, I realised I could no longer think as fast as I could previously.
In class, it often took me several seconds longer than others to catch on to what the teacher was saying, and I would often humiliate myself trying to spurt out a random answer before I actually knew what the real one was.
I realised all of this myself and searched vainly across medical websites for a reason why my performance had dropped so badly and those constant headaches which probably had lasted about two months and at times intensely for an entire freaken day! I diagnosed myself (don't want to jinx myself by saying what it was) and with a hint of anxiety went to see the doctor about it. I remember sitting in silence for over ten minutes after describing all of my symptoms while she stared at me with a contorted face trying to figure out what it could be.
In the end, nothing was prescribed or checked out further, she told me to return if the headaches continued - which they did for a while after but gradually died down (though the other symptoms didn't!). And I was convinced, that in going back, nothing would be done and it would only be a waste of time - which was my mentality for the majority of these past two years.
Putting aside what could have happened, my question to anyone who has read this insanely long, boring story (apologies!) is:
Did anyone else have these 'headaches/sensations' when they had gotten SA, depression or another related problem?
I ask this out of interest as this may have been the beginnings of the chemical imbalance that many people with mental disorders have.
Please reply and thanks. :wink:
Out of interest, I've been researching on how clinical depression sets in and its effects, and realising that I've had pretty much every symptom listed for a long while now (over 2 years, perhaps even 4). I kept asking why nobody including myself noticed that something was wrong. Time for a (relatively :roll: ) short story.
Turns out I did wonder about it, extensively - I even misdiagnosed myself and went to the doctor for a checkup!
In late year 10 I had just moved up to the top English class, I remember telling myself I would give it all I had to achieve the best results in the subjects I chose to do, not only in the new classes I had moved into that year, but in the following years as well. The motivation and the commitment to do well was certainly there in those last few months of year 10, and it payed off as in that single term I had beaten everyone in the class in the final exams.
Those last few months were also the most traumatic, and without going into the details, were the beginnings of my depression. When the year ended and the holidays came, at first I was relaxed and was convinced that those shitty days had passed.
Returning to school the next year, the motivation was still there for a few months, and the marks showed that in the first quarter. But then, very suddenly, I started getting strange headaches, more like sensations - not painful, but feeling as if something sharp was being constantly shoved in the middle of my brain. It started to become nearly impossible to wake up in the morning and go to school fresh and attentive. My attention span dropped and my mind would always dart to some random thought or another. Worst of all, I realised I could no longer think as fast as I could previously.
In class, it often took me several seconds longer than others to catch on to what the teacher was saying, and I would often humiliate myself trying to spurt out a random answer before I actually knew what the real one was.
I realised all of this myself and searched vainly across medical websites for a reason why my performance had dropped so badly and those constant headaches which probably had lasted about two months and at times intensely for an entire freaken day! I diagnosed myself (don't want to jinx myself by saying what it was) and with a hint of anxiety went to see the doctor about it. I remember sitting in silence for over ten minutes after describing all of my symptoms while she stared at me with a contorted face trying to figure out what it could be.
In the end, nothing was prescribed or checked out further, she told me to return if the headaches continued - which they did for a while after but gradually died down (though the other symptoms didn't!). And I was convinced, that in going back, nothing would be done and it would only be a waste of time - which was my mentality for the majority of these past two years.
Putting aside what could have happened, my question to anyone who has read this insanely long, boring story (apologies!) is:
Did anyone else have these 'headaches/sensations' when they had gotten SA, depression or another related problem?
I ask this out of interest as this may have been the beginnings of the chemical imbalance that many people with mental disorders have.
Please reply and thanks. :wink:
