Should I even worry?

[BornAgain]

I just started going to college and I have this one class where I'm one of the only two guys in. The other day, there was this thing where you had to partner up with the person next to you. There's not many people in the class, and it's fairly spread out, but there was this girl that sat like two seats next to me. Now, this fucking bitch didn't even care to look at me, and she asked the girl behind her if she wanted to be partners. I was just thinking like, what the fuck? What the fuck is this bitch's problem? She's sitting there as if I didn't even fucking exist, and I have to just sit there alone and do nothing like a goddamned loser, god I was so PISSED! And what pissed me off even more was that there was a girl (lady?) that was behind this bitch's partner, and they made a 3 person group when it was just supposed to be pairs! And to this I'm thinking:

there are 4 people here, and we are supposed to group up into pairs of 2. So, what the hell are you girls doing? Am I a freaking ghost or something? Do I not have feelings? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!

The only thing I could figure out as to why this happened is that this bitch was kind of ugly and fat, and I am a moderately attractive guy (some would say I'm hot), and that she just was to shy to ask me to be partners. In any case though, this is school, not sex, and everybody has feelings, and you don't go and fucking ignore the person who is sitting right next to you!

People (friends, family, etc., not strangers) say that I always look like I'm about to cry, which fucking pissed me off because when I look like that, I just feel normal. And because I always look like I'm gonna cry, I bet people look at me weirdly wherever I go, which is frustrating because I'm aconstantly thinking about my facial expression. How this little peice of information about me relates to this thread is this: when this bitch ignored me and I saw EVERYONE else with a partner, it actually kind of hurt me a little inside, just a tiny bit but enough to kind of make me feel a tiny little bit sad. Yes, I know this fat bitch was ugly (sorry, women, about the sex-related remarks, I don't hate women, I just lash out at people by using insulting name calling), and that maybe she was just to intimidated or shy to talk to me, but it still got to me. Since this caused a pinch of sadness in me, my already "about to cry" face probably looked even more like I was about to cry, which is pretty fucking embarassing: I mean, I was the only damn person without a partner, and I may have appeared to be almost on the brink of breaking tears. That to me is the epitome of embarrassment.

So, do you people think I am just over-analyizing this situation, or do you think I have some right to emotionally react the way that I did?

 

[BornAgain]

I love how people here enjoy reading semi-long posts, and how they would love nothing more than to at least reply with one sentence. Everyone here is so warm, I just want to give you all a hug :twisted: !

 

[Emma]

Oh don't be like that!!!
Yes you have a right to feel hurt that you got excluded.....but why do you need to worry what they think of you, if someone wants to be rude to you like that, is it really worth worrying about them?

 

[COALPORTER]

I use to have this problem at school too. No one wanted to be my partner
on group projects, so I had to ask the teacher to put me in a group and
the teacher would always give me a real strange look; like the teacher
never had this happen before.
Well, when I got to college, I took lots of lab science classes, so I got a little better at working with other people. but it was still hard to not
feel like a missfit.

Maybe this girl could somehow scence that you think she is a
f$$$king bitch, so that attitude is no way to make friends.
Maybe, deep down you have some kind of attitude problem that
people pick up on a stay away from you. Or maybe you look like
the big bad wolf or something.

 

[Van]

damn dude i feel you on this one. Whenever we have to work in groups i just sit next to someone thats there and dont really talk unless i have to then i say yeah or like little short sentences. And im like that too like when i have to explain myself or like ask a question i look like im sad or something when im not really at all just like embarrassed or whatever ud call it. but dont worry about her, i dislike rude people like that personally if i had to be parterns with anyone i would it dont matter how they are loook or if i like them or not but thats just me.

 

[maggie]

I just started going to college and I have this one class where I'm one of the only two guys in. The other day, there was this thing where you had to partner up with the person next to you. There's not many people in the class, and it's fairly spread out, but there was this girl that sat like two seats next to me. Now, this fucking bitch didn't even care to look at me, and she asked the girl behind her if she wanted to be partners. I was just thinking like, what the fuck? What the fuck is this bitch's problem? She's sitting there as if I didn't even fucking exist, and I have to just sit there alone and do nothing like a goddamned loser, god I was so PISSED! And what pissed me off even more was that there was a girl (lady?) that was behind this bitch's partner, and they made a 3 person group when it was just supposed to be pairs! And to this I'm thinking:

there are 4 people here, and we are supposed to group up into pairs of 2. So, what the hell are you girls doing? Am I a freaking ghost or something? Do I not have feelings? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!

The only thing I could figure out as to why this happened is that this bitch was kind of ugly and fat, and I am a moderately attractive guy (some would say I'm hot), and that she just was to shy to ask me to be partners. In any case though, this is school, not sex, and everybody has feelings, and you don't go and fucking ignore the person who is sitting right next to you!

People (friends, family, etc., not strangers) say that I always look like I'm about to cry, which fucking pissed me off because when I look like that, I just feel normal. And because I always look like I'm gonna cry, I bet people look at me weirdly wherever I go, which is frustrating because I'm aconstantly thinking about my facial expression. How this little peice of information about me relates to this thread is this: when this bitch ignored me and I saw EVERYONE else with a partner, it actually kind of hurt me a little inside, just a tiny bit but enough to kind of make me feel a tiny little bit sad. Yes, I know this fat bitch was ugly (sorry, women, about the sex-related remarks, I don't hate women, I just lash out at people by using insulting name calling), and that maybe she was just to intimidated or shy to talk to me, but it still got to me. Since this caused a pinch of sadness in me, my already "about to cry" face probably looked even more like I was about to cry, which is pretty fucking embarassing: I mean, I was the only damn person without a partner, and I may have appeared to be almost on the brink of breaking tears. That to me is the epitome of embarrassment.

So, do you people think I am just over-analyizing this situation, or do you think I have some right to emotionally react the way that I did?

hey BornAgain..my feelings would have been hurt too..then the discomfort of sitting there, while everyone else was paired up..that sucks :evil: ...but i think you're right, that perhaps the girl closest to you could have been shy to ask you to partner up? I wouldn't take it too personally, but i do know how you feel. Your story reminded me of when i was in school, and the dreaded phys.ed class..when the teacher would pick two incredibly athletic students..and tell them to pick students, one by one, to form teams..and being a small, quiet, 'un sports-oriented' girl..i was usually the last one standing waiting to be picked

 

[BornAgain]

I just started going to college and I have this one class where I'm one of the only two guys in. The other day, there was this thing where you had to partner up with the person next to you. There's not many people in the class, and it's fairly spread out, but there was this girl that sat like two seats next to me. Now, this fucking bitch didn't even care to look at me, and she asked the girl behind her if she wanted to be partners. I was just thinking like, what the fuck? What the fuck is this bitch's problem? She's sitting there as if I didn't even fucking exist, and I have to just sit there alone and do nothing like a goddamned loser, god I was so PISSED! And what pissed me off even more was that there was a girl (lady?) that was behind this bitch's partner, and they made a 3 person group when it was just supposed to be pairs! And to this I'm thinking:

there are 4 people here, and we are supposed to group up into pairs of 2. So, what the hell are you girls doing? Am I a freaking ghost or something? Do I not have feelings? WHAT THE HELL IS WRONG WITH YOU PEOPLE!!!!!!

The only thing I could figure out as to why this happened is that this bitch was kind of ugly and fat, and I am a moderately attractive guy (some would say I'm hot), and that she just was to shy to ask me to be partners. In any case though, this is school, not sex, and everybody has feelings, and you don't go and fucking ignore the person who is sitting right next to you!

People (friends, family, etc., not strangers) say that I always look like I'm about to cry, which fucking pissed me off because when I look like that, I just feel normal. And because I always look like I'm gonna cry, I bet people look at me weirdly wherever I go, which is frustrating because I'm aconstantly thinking about my facial expression. How this little peice of information about me relates to this thread is this: when this bitch ignored me and I saw EVERYONE else with a partner, it actually kind of hurt me a little inside, just a tiny bit but enough to kind of make me feel a tiny little bit sad. Yes, I know this fat bitch was ugly (sorry, women, about the sex-related remarks, I don't hate women, I just lash out at people by using insulting name calling), and that maybe she was just to intimidated or shy to talk to me, but it still got to me. Since this caused a pinch of sadness in me, my already "about to cry" face probably looked even more like I was about to cry, which is pretty fucking embarassing: I mean, I was the only damn person without a partner, and I may have appeared to be almost on the brink of breaking tears. That to me is the epitome of embarrassment.

So, do you people think I am just over-analyizing this situation, or do you think I have some right to emotionally react the way that I did?

hey BornAgain..my feelings would have been hurt too..then the discomfort of sitting there, while everyone else was paired up..that sucks :evil: ...but i think you're right, that perhaps the girl closest to you could have been shy to ask you to partner up? I wouldn't take it too personally, but i do know how you feel. Your story reminded me of when i was in school, and the dreaded phys.ed class..when the teacher would pick two incredibly athletic students..and tell them to pick students, one by one, to form teams..and being a small, quiet, 'un sports-oriented' girl..i was usually the last one standing waiting to be picked

thanks for yor words, maggie.

this same girl gave me a dirty look like two days ago; she just looked at me when I was looking at the white board, I could tell with only my peripheral vision, and then she didn't look at me after. I was under the influence of a strong brew of coffee (I put WAY to much coffee grounds in the coffee brewer, I'm a coffee newbie) and I felt totally fucked up and evergetic, and I couldn't stop moving. I'm sure the whole class thinks I'm a weirdo by now, or whoever saw this behavior anyway, but I'm in college for the education and the money; if I can make some new friends, that's great! If someone doesn't like me just because I may come off as a weird person at first, then that someone can lick my balls and swallow my fart!

 

[maggie]

hey BornAgain...best thing you could do, i think, is to ignore the snobby people (it's not easy, i know) and stick with college..get your education. I think it's awesome you're going to school..education is empowerment :wink:

 

[MariahCarey]

lick my balls and swallow my fart!

i cant understand why that bitch wouldn't wanna work with you!!! your funny!!!! take no notice, i;m sure YOU wouldnt wanna work with her either, right? she sounds like an idiot!

 

[Moonie]

When I was in HS, there was nothing worse than having to pair up with partners. I usually worked solo if it was an option.

I am sorry to hear about your situation. I don't know why this is the case, but some people really have a problem with quiet/shy people. One time my teacher put us in groups for a skit. After she announced all the groups, this kid ran up to the teacher and said, "I am not working with _my first name_ _my last name_. She doesn't talk!" This was one of my worst HS memories. He was so persiostent about this, that the teacher moved him to a different group.

Even the rest of the group was saying stuff like, "What a jerk. I can't stand that kid." That was the one time I almost cried at school.

I also have a face that looks like I am about to cry. I remember some girl asked me if I was going to cry- because my face looked that way.

 

[BornAgain]

lick my balls and swallow my fart!

i cant understand why that bitch wouldn't wanna work with you!!! your funny!!!! take no notice, i;m sure YOU wouldnt wanna work with her either, right? she sounds like an idiot!

thanks mariah! I appreciate the, uhhhhhhh, appreciation!


Yeah Moonie, I hated that shit in PE also. Although I was normal in High School, I still hated (and still do) sports and people obsessed with sports (jocks), so I hated when these jocks would have to pick people for a team. I was pretty small in high school until 11th grade or so, so these jocks wouldn't pick me until all their freinds were picked. I wasn't embarassed about this, just pissed off at the jocks because I hate(d) jocks.

What an asshole, that kid said she didn't wanna work with you because you don't talk?!!?? You should've said something there, been like "what the fuck bitch! you wanna talk with me? how about come meet me at the lockers after school?", or something that would scare this stupid kid. Honestly, if that kid said that to/about me, I would just say "fuck you" and flip him off. If he wanted to fight, I would've beat the living shit out of him, but that's just me. Sorry that all that happened to you.